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Selected Poems of Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 28, 2005, 3:59 pm

Blue on Blue

I wish you were here to see the moon with me
Tonight my dream-lover from over the sea
I could never begin to describe aright
This refraction this diffusion of the light
As haloed by gold clouds wreathed by silver mist
The moon becomes a daring aerialist

Riding the clouds and thrilling the crowds all night
Surfing the sky and rising as high as dawn
Till merging with the greater light it is gone

But it has only disappeared from my eyes
To rise in glory there when it is day here
To delight other eyes in faraway skies
And when it is far from me it will be near
Two true blue eyes of love right there above you
To dance for you reminding you I love you

Blue on blue to bind us two
By a third the moon and you
And I: blue on blue on blue

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 28, 2005, 6:55 am

To Make a Pretty Girl Smile Awhile

I would like to sing a little song
To make a pretty girl smile awhile
You may say silly willy-nilly
Not very fancy not very long
A little something for a little girl
A pretty girl who makes my senses swirl

I want to be with her to take a whirl
On that old insane carousel of love
And sing a little song for her above
All the absurdity this crazy life
Can throw at us and all the noise and stuff
Which interferes and keeps her far from me

I know she loves me and that is enough
And I also know that my destiny
Might well be to make this pretty girl my wife
So I will sing like there is no tomorrow
And drown out with my song the noise and sorrow
Of everything ...and she will smile as I sing

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 28, 2005, 3:20 am

They Always Told Her I Was Not Good Enough

I once loved a woman and she was the one
She was the right one for me
But everyone around her always told her
That our love could never be
They tried to blind her eyes so she could not see

But when she opened them I was still there
With a love which they could never understand
Just stupid old me my dream and my prayer
Now we will meet again in a better land

I once loved a woman and wanted her so
They wanted our love to die
They always told her I was not good enough
They tried insult they tried lie
They nearly succeeded but she needed me

Now she is gone and they remain
Nor give a damn about my pain

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 27, 2005, 4:01 pm

Crawling Toward Healing

one poet's psychological crisis and pilgrimage

Is madness inescapable for me
A biological imperative
Written in the book of life in the sky
Encoded in my genes and all that means
A destiny of family history
A sentence of death under which to live
No matter what I do nor how I try?

Made a fool of on the Internet
My words offend seized on by enemies
I thought were friends who relish times like these
Made a fool of everywhere and yet
In sickness what am I supposed to do
Stop writing poetry?
I will not be him I cannot be you
I can only be me
I have to express myself and I will
Forty years failure of medication
I have paid my dues I have paid the bill

I return to God and meditation
With the help of God I will overcome
I will stand again somehow
By the love of God I will overcome
And my healing starts right now
Breakdown breakup breakout
Never count me out

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 26, 2005, 9:55 pm

For I Am Not

I wrote a lot of poetry
No one wanted to see
I never noticed this before:
I had become a bore

I used to send my poems to my "friends"
But nevermore because I think it tends
To make them all get tired of me
I am sure you agree

So now yes sir and now yes ma'am
I will no longer spam
With poetry for which you do not care
Ignore me: just pretend I am not there

For I am not

I just forgot
If momentarily
You do not care for me
As I once thought

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 26, 2005, 6:58 pm

Considering Conceding: Weighing Withdrawal

(Making the same mistake Kierkegaard made?)

As I have discussed and written before
The human being finds himself alone
But if he should hear a knock at his door
Ought he then open it to the unknown?
Is it imaginary? Is it real?
Better if imaginary is how I feel

To the question of clerical celibacy
I answer with Isaiah "here am I: send me"

A difficult relationship is worse
Than being alone in the universe
No regrets no fears nor would one cause tears

I prefer to avoid the heartbreak and trouble
Which comes when we cause our aloneness to double
And I have been celibate for these past twelve years

Could there be hope? Of course! There always is
Yet I fear that hope is not mine ...but his:

Rival! I salute you in your superiority!
Leave me alone then with my God! Lord here am I: send me

Only one haunts me
No one else wants me

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 26, 2005, 4:54 pm

Moment of Clarity

Alienation and isolation
My difficult roommates of fifty years
Today took welcome if brief vacation
And took along my phobias and fears
Away they went on holiday to hell
Left me to fend for myself on my own

And in their absence today turned out well
Not alienated only alone
Not isolated merely singular
And as for fears of things which never were
They went with the phobias and the rest

I am beginning to like it this way
And am wondering if perhaps the best
Idea is to extend this holiday
Of all my demons make them stay away
Changing the locks and not going back to
The way things were no matter what they do

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 25, 2005, 6:02 pm

To Be Alone Together or Apart?

Is everyone ultimately alone
As loop and closed circuit joined end to end
And never really understood nor known
To others be they lover child or friend?

Alone with thoughts of God or of the void
Alone yet always seeking company?
To be alone together is the goal
Aloneness doubled but never destroyed

Human beings seem predestined to be
Singly or doubly alone at the soul
The chasm never filled by orgasm
The little death but foretaste of the great

The still point in silence as hours grow late
Calls higher than the mocking of the flesh
That moment of communion in a sea
Of misunderstanding and wounds made fresh

I wonder is there hope for you and me?
Could we undertake to make pilgrimage
Called higher to the still point in an age
Of anger and utter cacophony?

To sleep to dream to wake to doubt
To have a broken or a bricked-up heart
Looking within looking without
To be alone together or apart?

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 25, 2005, 11:11 am

Transcendental Sonnet #1314:
Magister Ludi / Betting It All

Goose and gander
Tit for tat in love and war
Raise no dander
All is fair if this then that
Which is will be as it has been before

Are you in or are you out?
You roll the dice and the game
Is on
Once you join the game all doubt
Is gone

Branded on your heart the name
Burning in the smoking sky
Love cannot afford to die
Today so sit down take your cards and play

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 25, 2005, 2:13 am

A Relative Reality

What people call reality
Seems relative to them to me
I don't reject it out of hand
I just don't see what the fuss is about
It's something I don't understand
In their reality it seems I'm out

But that seems to me to be a good thing
I don't see what it has to do
With here and now with me and you
Unreal reality has a false ring

It's whatever they say
Not even what they do
On any given day
And done to me and you
But that would seem to me to be
A relative reality

Not really real at all! You see?

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 24, 2005, 9:24 pm

Simply Together

People have hurt us
People desert us
When we think we have a friend
When we have come to depend
On those who say they love us
Their protection above us
Beneath us around us disappears
Betrayal has found us lost in tears

Yet there have been one or two
People just like me like you
And nothing can come between
Us and nothing can demean
What we share and how we care
For one another all our days
True friends are for now and for always
Today and forever we will be there

No if when nor whether
But simply together

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 24, 2005, 5:14 pm

On Transcending Anger and Hate

Perhaps one has to reach a certain age
To finally transcend the anger of
Life which so often burns us in our youth
To gain perspective and escape from rage
Evolving through unselfishness to love
In the service of meaning and of truth

Perhaps one needs to live for quite awhile
To be able to accept with a smile
That there is so much which does not make sense
To learn to shrug the shoulders shake the head
Move past defensiveness as a defense
Finding some sense before being found dead

But then again there are angry old men
Some people never seem to get it straight
Consumed by the sin of pride from within
That there is no hope to be found in hate

I have seen it twist pervert and destroy
A man who was once a beautiful boy
His loving heart punctured as by a pin
He was once a mother's pride-and-joy son
Left now a hollow husk by hate undone
I would not be that man please God not me

Blessed is he who hate transcends
With a little help from his friends

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 24, 2005, 10:50 am

Transcendental Sonnet #1313:
So Many People and So Few Years

I would have friends and I would be one
Be a blessing to those around me
Would know one in need when I see one
Have others be glad that they found me
And in general be of service
To my fellow human beings here

So many are anxious and nervous
I would soothe suffering and fight fear
And honestly love fellow creatures
As all are both students and teachers

So much to learn and so much to teach
Many tears to dry and many fears
To calm and comfort many to reach
So many people and so few years

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 24, 2005, 1:37 am

Cats in Clover

The winter sunshine feels so good today
The sky was all motley and dappled shade
It could have easily gone either way
Light and dark fought but decision was made
That the sun would break free and victorious

My cat is basking and thinks it glorious
To feel this half-forgotten warmth again
After days of steady relentless rain
Which indeed is to return as refrain
Soon enough but let us not think of that

But that is how they say it is to be
I would never dream of telling my cat
This afternoon is perfect and I say
Thank you Lord for this for my cat and me

I should tell you that my cat's name is Fred
Very well-fed and a very good friend
He is nine years old fat and rusty-red
When it is raining cold we always end
Up curled-up together as we weather
Out all the strange things strange storms tend to send

But now he has gone out with Smokey Joe
The neighbor-cat who knocked on the window
With his paw as he saw Fred sleeping there
So now they are romping and frisking where
They like to be best as the sun sets in the west
They leap and roll over in rain-softened clover

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 23, 2005, 10:45 pm

Reporting Live from Hollywood:
Oscar-Nomination-Worthy Rain

I prayed "O Lord bring back the fun"
He brought back the sun till Sunday
At least that is the day they say
Another round will be begun
Of Oscar-nomination-worthy rain

A few days in which to dry out
Before we all get hosed again
And wonder if a waterspout
Will come ashore down at Seal Beach
Or rockslide berms on PCH will breach

I would not complain but I should explain
It only happens in February
And none of us here are ever very
Good at handling any sort of weather

But this rain does bring people together
If only in a muddle or a crash
And always in a puddle with a splash
This being Hollywood we are quite good
At making the most of it with a dash
Of style as we muck about for awhile

Whatever the Lord and Oscar may bring
In this "industry" I live love and sing
We make a production of everything

+Steven Curtis Lance ASCAP
(my initials make me sound more "industry")

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Feb 23, 2005, 9:47 am

Bring Back the Sun

They tell me depression is on the rise
In southern California where the sun
Supposedly always shines there are signs
It has been so long since sun met our eyes
That melancholia has now begun
To sneak into the supermarket lines
Psychological sorrow psychic pains
Are zig-zagging across the freeway lanes

Trying to equalize and stabilize
Our mood within this constant rain of late
Has tipped the scales of many to create
Depression of unmanageable size
All night all day no matter what they say
About it the rain will not go away

They worry about it on the telly
But we feel helpless as we realize
As they speak of cut-off lows and storm cells
We are cut-off in our personal hells
Our hillsides are now turning to jelly
So they say depression is on the rise

It is not in our heads but in our skies
Bring back the fun O Lord bring back the sun

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 23, 2005, 12:07 am

Content Beneath a Discontented Sky

I thought that we had gotten through the rain
In southern California where the sun
Had teased a little while with winking smile
But now it has started to rain again
Another round of mudslides has begun
And we will have to hunker down awhile

This old house has come through many a storm
Nor is there any mud to slide where I
Just write my sonnets and try to keep warm
Curled up with my cat and watching the sky
Through old lace curtains here in my front room

And though the sky grows dark there is no gloom
Inside of me as spring begins to sprout
Within as the torrents begin without
I will stay right here I will have no fear
And when this is over I will go out
To go and buy more apples at the store

God grant them grace today who mudslides face
And may he keep eccentric poets dry
At least I have a place of quiet grace
Content beneath a discontented sky

I will not float away today but if I do
I will ride the tide to float all the way to you

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 22, 2005, 5:58 pm

Transcendental Sonnet #1312:
After Rain

A patch of blue sky through the lace curtain
Of my Grandma's kitchen which is now mine
Sunbeams through the old windows light the floor

I understand that life is uncertain
Yet now after rain a sense of divine
Order and symmetry more than before
Comes into focus looking through old lace
Absently as I watch sparrows return
And in small bright white cloud-shapes where I trace
Profoundest secrets I may never learn

I like to know but like to wonder too
I seek no scientific proof of things
I like to hear that sparrow when he sings
And I would like to take a walk with you

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 22, 2005, 7:25 am

With You

for you~*

The sun and the rain
The summer so warm
The cold winter storm
The joy and the pain

The times and spaces
Of my life's refrain
Ever new begun

I would not trade places
With you nor anyone

This is my life it belongs to me
I have not been but I would be free
Should you be free would you like to see
How you and I together might be?

My heart is free and my heart is true
I would love to share my heart with you

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 21, 2005, 9:13 pm

In the Current of the Now

Miracles and tragedies
Innocence experience
Life is made of such as these

Pain and pleasure so intense
It is best we never know
Until we survive somehow
Whence we come nor where we go

In the current of the now

All we have yet all we need
As life passes wave on sand
None can grasp by craft nor greed
More than we can understand

Time the river flows indeed
Futile is the outstretched hand
Which would stop the flood and flow

Let us let go let us be
In the stream of destiny
Washed away to be set free

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 21, 2005, 2:38 pm

Transcendental Sonnet #1311:
Lunatics and Lovers

let the dance begin~*

Lunatics and lovers lie awake
Both of us driven mad by the moon
Rising now in silence for her sake
To dance with Lady Luna and swoon
In the ring to which she has called us

All of us are lunatics tonight
Moon-magic madness has enthralled us
Ancient but never felt quite like this
Dancing in the blue and bone-white light
Of the full moon's blue and bone-white kiss

Blue and bone-white hot and cold the same
Blue as ice bone-white as hottest fire
Dance of death and life ring of desire
On my heart your name seared by cold flame

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 21, 2005, 3:51 am

Transcendental Sonnet #1310:
Enough Said

I have decided to eat no more beans
I suppose you know why and what this means

I was told I should eat them for protein
But at a price! Apples and rice are nice
Never make mischief nor need I think twice
Of these but please remind me that the bean
Apparently does not agree with me

Dante has demons in hell turn and trump
One to another employing the rump
Indeed they might as well for it is hell
After all but the idea does appall
Bearing as it does the ring and the sting
Of a most awkward indelicate thing

No more beans! Apples instead: enough said

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 20, 2005, 12:27 pm

Transcendental Sonnet #1309:
Please Take Along This Smile (Hello Mr. Chips)

an inscription for a book as yet unwritten

Dear reader should you be an Anglophile
I do hope you will stop in here awhile
And if you are not perhaps you forgot
How charming we can be as you will see

And reader should you be an Anglophobe
Poetry hospitality and tea
Should soften you up as you gently probe
The secrets of the universe with me

I had a tenant called me Mr. Chips
I have been told I have sensitive lips
Do come right on in and let us begin
And when you leave please take along this smile

But my broken heart belongs to someone far away
(Hello Mr. Chips) and we will meet again someday

+Steven Curtis Lance

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Feb 20, 2005, 10:07 am

Curiosity Cures Curious Curtis

A solitary hunter on my own
The pursuit of curiosity
Would seem to be the meaning to me
Of life and human activity
Within a world of mysteries unknown

An itch the scratch of which enriches my
Querulous quest as I question why
Things are as they are before I die
My first wife said "you are so curious!"
Why yes ma'am I was and I am because
It makes people like her so furious

And should I never find the answers I
Have gotten in trouble asking questions
And enjoyed stumbling toward suggestions
As to why things might be as they are
A glimpse of truth if only from afar

+Steven "Curious" Lance

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Feb 19, 2005, 7:33 pm

Transcendental Sonnet #1308:

amor vincit omnia

When I said the weatherman was mistaken it was I
Who turned out to be since it has been raining now: you see
For about three days the storm met with overseas delays
And during that bright and sunny time everything was dry

But not anymore! We are in for four or six or eight
Days of steady soaking as it came both better and late
So what do I do? I write about you and wait for sun
As none can take you from me now safe in my memory
The chain of the pain of the past now lies broken at last

I have come to love the rain now for it reminds me of
The sweet and ineffable tragedy of you and me
And of all our tears and of all our fears and the thunder
Speaks of eternal justice as I listen with wonder

I think of who did this to you and what he is: the guilt is his

+Steven Curtis Lance

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there will be justice yet
and you will be avenged
so help me God


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