Where I Belong


I have that failure feeling
One I have known before
Creating pain within me
Please tell me why my Lord.
I have tried to do the right things
The way they are suppose to be
But something always happens
And it ends up hurting me.
Is there any special reason
Or is it something I have done wrong
That I am being punished for
Kept from the good things that I long
I am so tired now of trying
Nothing ever seems to change for me
I am thinking that I was never meant
To be happy don't you agree
So do I just continue
To figure out what I must do
Or do I give up and step aside
It's hard for me to choose.
All the hours of trying
All the work I have done
Can not all be for nothing
that just seems would be so wrong.
So I guess I know the answer
And I must just keep strong
And one day in my future
I will find where I belong.

written by:Jean Marie Boudreau
July 2nd,2004

I feel this way a lot.

But I always remember Sir Winston Churchill's "Five Nevers":

"Never, never, never, never, never give up."

That's one of those quotations--like life itself--where you either get it or you don't.

Like Henry David Thoreau said:

"Simplify, simplify, simplify."

To which my ex-wife said:

"If he wanted to simplify, why didn't he just say it once?"

My answer to that would be that to simplify is an ongoing process, even a struggle, certainly a striving in this complex society in which we find ourselves.

However many nevers one uses, never give up.

I love your poem, by the way.

I hope you like my "Hallowe'en Hush-Hush," and I hope nobody asks me what the secret is, because that aforementioned ex-wife--Teddy's mother--reads these pages. Yikes! But I made the right decision, amazingly enough...