Ok abuse is a pretty vauge topic right? i mean like it could mean emotinal, verbal, pyshcial, self inflicted, alot of stuff right? sexual, mental? am i right? so like cutting and "self-mutilation" is abuse in a way right? i mean techincally if you look at it, thats wat it is, cuz u are abusing ur body, even if you are doing it for a good reason. so its abuse right? and also.

Ok like a year ago, i was with this guy, not with with him, cuz he didnt was a gf he just wanted a b*tch to screw around with, but he didnt want me to tell anyone wat we were doing bcuz he "liked his business kept private" so we were waiting for the school bus to come one day and we went over into these buches trail thingy, and he wanted me to give him head, ok i didnt want to, i really didnt want to, i'd never done it before, i'd made out, i'd been touched and stuff, but i'd never done that, i didnt want to look stupid, and i wasnt sure if i was ready to do that kinda stuff. he kept saying oh roze you know you will do it, so why dont you just do it and get it over with, so finally , he "convinced" me to do it, and by convinced i mean, he had this look in his eyes, and his face was like , you have to do this kinda thing, like not pyshical threat or anything, but a look ya know? so it scared me, and i did it, well i decided i didnt want to anymore and so i pulled away and he grabbed my arm and was all where are you gouing and i said i tihnk i hear the bus and he was like no its not here yet, so he grabbed my hand and put it on his dick and made me give him a hand job... and he grabbed at me and sh*t... the thing i want to know, is was that abuse? or was i just being over emotianal?

i wont talk to him anymore, i mean i try to be nice, bcuz i dont need people to know about that stuff, but i dont go to him and talk, bcuz i, he still scares me... ya know?

ROze

dont worry, i dont need to know any of this sh*t it isnt freiken important to me at all

Roze,

SOunds like you were forced to do soemthing you didnt want to. Unfortunately, it is done and there is no going back to fix it, BUT I hope you can learn form a horrible experience and try to keep yourself safe in the future.

Good luck dear!

Now, honlesty, i really dont care. i mean everyone thinks of me as a slut, so i honlesty dont care. im at leat g etting recignition from something. sometihnhg other then my brother.