Yellow candles burning away
i wish i could stay,
with my head in my hands
withering away

im sitting on the chair,
waiting to kiss the dead goodbye
the casket is closed
something catches my eye...

odor of wine and myhr
i take a step near,
casket open
do i feel fear?

Because i dont know who is inside
i catch a breath
clear my mind
i look
but its me inside...

So i see the light at the end of tunnel,
"no tears for the creatures of the night"
should i cry?
Well,i might
After all it is me...

Still,i see the light
but it gets dimmer with every step i take
life flashes in front of my life,
Some good moments some bad
some even fake

Dancing the nights away in Thailand,
beautifull females all around
and where were my hands?
well,i guess they knew better
swifty moves just to "mount"

A sixpack of beers and i am Travolta of the night
Handsome,maybe eloquent,
but what do i find?

As the beat drops
teardrops...
Testosterone high,
alcohol blood levels high,
Shhhh ,i wont make a sigh

why do i cry?
Its al in vain,
alcohol in my veins
but for a swift moment
i catch a glimpse of the same sight...

I look up and what do i sea?
An emerald see,
Still,i see the light
but it gets dimmer with every step i take
life flashes in front of my life,
Some good moments some bad
some even fake

Back to the casket,
there is my best mate,
hate,use it on others can feel great
use it onyourself and you loose a mate
Was it hemlock,
or the old rusty blade,
as i depart i see my crying mate,
well,thats fate...

Thailand nights,
10 hour flights,
getting all boozed up in Greece,
Sometimes even fights,
lots of "Might"s
lots of women
lots of ice....

Flashes of life as i depart
i wish i was still on that chair,
even with messed up hair,
This is not art

Its life flashing,
as i depart...

Well....Some critique on myself...

Leaving my work a bit burried and coming back to this poem i find it is a sort of a "colage"...Mainly two themes in there and it was fueled by current events at my life....

Hmmm...i still like it but in another way..In the way that it was a turning point.I guess i grew...Hooray for growing up,i think!