Its been 2 years since that thing we did, all 3 of us.
on some island, surrounded by some sea
with some mentality of "they cant ever get us!"
A costly undertaking having an absurd and ruinous outcome.
how the follies of our actions eventually brings us back down.
what were we thinking anyway? Of course we'd be caught, one way
or another. its designed like that.
I screwed those 2. fucked up their lives as I fucked mine
for no reasons but for all reasons at the time
they had no idea of what i was doing
i lead them on, lying with style
i wish i could have said sorry to them
but there was too much anger there
theres only so much time spent in the same room at the jails
and courts in a foriegn country.
I did see them once, after the fact and chains came off
a blast of deserving of blame.
maybe in a few years i will approach them with...
nothing.
how to say "um yeah, so like, im sorry about F**KING your life up,
i hope its working out now...by the by- how was jail?"
thats insulting, does it need to be done?

I dream about those 2 people
nightmare-ish
both chasing me or with guns
talking about me. jeering

Its their right to hate me
Its natural.
All 3 of us did IT
but I was the one that fucked up the deal
i was the one that went behind backs in search of
some different out come, and truthfully something more
Dangerous. the result took me to many different places,
many different dangers. I let them down but I got out,
was it worth it?

yes.

I dont live my life standing in the back
gotta make a move to get out


details are the many stars
its better to see the whole sky, sometimes
for what its worth: I do feel bad about that situation
girls.

I wonder if they dream about me

It's so raw. Untamable, yet unrestless.