Dara
Jun 30, 2004, 08:50 AM
Basically, I sit here and contemplate my life with anorexia, how much I desire to be left alone to fade away...It is my desire, above all. I am supposed to be working towards eating more and gaining weight, instead I am lying, because I can, because it is easy, and because my ED mind is telling me to. I know once the lies come out I wil be in big trouble. I want to reach out for help and say, "Please, I am not feeling well, I am not eating much of anythng at all, PLEASE help me!" but that voice is drowned by the other part of me, the ED part. I dont even know what kind of help I want...help to die? Help to get over my ED? that scares me more then dying. I am so confused...
Silke Lance
Jul 03, 2004, 01:23 AM
| QUOTE (Dara @ Jun 30, 05:50 PM) |
| "Please, I am not feeling well, I am not eating much of anythng at all, PLEASE help me!" |
Oh...Dara...how I wish that I could help you.
Now....once we promised eachother to somehow survive all this,remember?
You are loved and needed by so many people(Including me and Steven)...
Hang in there
*Knowing which way to turn gives you self confidence. Taking a chance and going the opposite way gives you a chance to see what you are made of.*
(Love you Sis)
anonymust
Jul 03, 2004, 03:46 AM
dara- yaoZA!
what a way to live, how sad to be that way and to keep living in such ways.
dont you ever say "awe F**K it- Im not doing THIS anymore, I dont have to feel this way anymore cuz i choose not to, and i choose to move beyond this ED."
Arent you strong enough to say and believe in yourself like that?
come on now- wheres the Self Reliance and self motativation? I knows it in their, I can hear it from Here.
peace and healty ease Dara and mrs silke
Silke Lance
Jul 03, 2004, 03:52 AM
Dear anonymust,
Well...as a matter of fact;I KNOW that Dara is having a hell of a time to SURVIVE:She is fighting and stuggeling against her E.D.She is doing her UTTERMOST to get thru the day.
Dara IS STRONG...VERY strong(I admire her for enduring what she has been thru..WITHOUT getting bitter)
..her ED has NOTHING to do with believing in herself.
If you are suffering from Anorexia you cant just say"F**K it"
It is a disease.
A very dangerous one.
If you have any questions about how it is to live with anorexia;feel free to ask.I will do my best to answer you.
Only the best,
Silke
rhymer
Jul 03, 2004, 10:06 AM
Hello Dara,
I just wanted you to see a little fellow who wants you to start feeling better!
Bluey
anonymust
Jul 03, 2004, 01:17 PM
touchie touchie delicate silke.
you took me totally wrong, but then again thats your mind-choice on how you want to understand me. its up to you but from me- it wasnt intented to upset an already upset dara.
Dara
Jul 03, 2004, 06:36 PM
Annomyoust,
Silke is not being touchy, she KNOWS the reality of life with an ED...
Silke Lance
Jul 04, 2004, 01:24 AM
Anonymust...
me touchy and delicate?
Yeah...probably.
But...I LIVE with anorexia...I am even hospitalized because of my ED.
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