Trapped with "Ana"
(Anorexia Nervosa)

It has a way of slowly taking over so many aspects of your life in a way that you don't realize. Almost painlessly, until you wake up one day and realize that you're in...deep. Stealing first more and more of your thoughts. At first, amaturely picking at any one, like a hungry foreigner exposed to a rich orchard for the first time.......taking mostly fickle or useless ones. Soon learning the game and learning you it quickly moves in a plucks away the red, fleshy, crunchy promising thoughts, causing you to breathe a little more shallow, and hunger.....but the hunger becomes a longing for it. You hunger for your new thoughts. You thrive off of the oxygen of those hot sticky heated whispers of deception. You sink slowly
into your self prison. Homemade quicksand. Only, you don't know what
you've gotten into. Only, now your sinking and you could be saved if you would only scream. It tells you to stay quiet. You thrash and sink further. It reminds you that it is your sanity. The very act of you believing it shows how far gone you really are. But now your self prison is inescapable. It's your high when you feel low, a way to numb out of life. It's a self built wall and a new self-proclamation of sanity. Truly, it may be your insanity. And now you're up to your elbows but its keeping you warm in this cold world. Can't you take a nap? It's such a tired pursuit, and you're so exhausted.
Whatever you do, scream like a son-of-a-gun.
Whatever you do.........DON'T fall asleep.

Remember that it is a liar.
Remember that many times, you with think that very statement is a lie.
Remember that the only reason that it's so charming is because it's after your life....


*The mortality rate for anorexia is higher than any other psychological disorder.

*Approximately 70 million people worldwide have an eating disorder

Silke, this is the best piece of writing about ana I have read ina LOOONG time. So cleverly written and so very true. It is like being trapped in quicksand!

Thanks so much for sharing this with us!

Love,
Dara