Do you know....?

Do you know how it feels
To wake up feeling dirty inside?

Do you know how it feels
To be trapped in waking memories?

Do you know how it feels
Being hated for what I am?

Do you know how it feels
Breaching this borderline insanity?

Do you know how it feels
Waking up crying all the time?

Do you know how it feels
Not being able to stop cutting?

Do you know how it feels
Dreaming and always seeing that face?

Do you know how it feels
Always thinking that I COMMITED A CRIME?

Do you know how it feels
Stuck in a rut, filled with blame and hurting....?

Do you know how it feels
Bleeding alone and dying alone?

Do you know how it feels
Crying for every person that hurt me?

Do you know how it feels
To never think of home as home?

Do you know how it feels
to always again and again being used?

Do you know how it feels
Never to be free?


Why cant you see
this hurt child incased in all this pain,
suffering again and again

Please

Silke,

I can answer YES to every question. It is so sad, so hard to live. We always hurt and blame ourselves...I think if we unleashed the anger on the people who deserved it, we would KILL someone, so its safer to slowly, methodologically, kill ourselves.

I am in this with you Silke!
Love,
Dara

you have realy touched me with this one..*sigh*..i can relate.
love, always ..di

Diona...
I am so sorry to hear that you can relate to these things...

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Take good care of yourself

~Greetings

Silke