What is the cure for Laziness?
What is the cure for great lack of will?
What is the cure for the sarrow that these two thing create?
I have no motivation to wake up in the morning. I am always walking around the kitchen looking for something to eat, but in the end I can't find anything to satisfy my taste, so I just don't eat. I hate where I live I hate all of the things around me. I want to die and, I feel like a coward and a fool. Some days start out ok but always end in a depressing feeling like i'm all alone forever and ever. Nothing that I have tried seems to help, I know I should just be content with what I have and, what I am but, I sinserely feel like I do not belog in this world and, I very much doubt my ability to change. I feel helpless to the max and nothing external helps. I can't bring myself to look inwardly for help because my mind is so fucked up. I guess I've been fucked up all along, otherwise I wouldn't be fucked up now. Somebody help me with this please because I really can't do it myself. I can't reason with myself, I feel traped without any hope. I feel weak asking for help even though I shouldn't. HELP

Yeah, I think that sounds good, I think tomarrow I'l go for a long bike ride. Try to figure things out. It's just that my thoughts are scatered about and I have nothing to motivate me. I now know what I must do, but it's doing that's hard alot of the times. I just hope I don't forget what I learn. It seems like every time I learn something I forget it. I'l do my best to make worth of this situation I'm in. Thank you for the advice. I will try my best to use it.

i dont know much how to answer you bcuz i have basically the same problem lol and i cant seem o figure out how to help it out either but i thought i could at least try bcuz i hate t when ppl look at posts and dont reply. so here goes huh
just like when you cant sleep, or talk with someone.. im so sory i cant help more tho...
rOze

Hello Karl,

You are obviously a thoughtful person; an impression I obtain from reading your posts!

I am sorry to read of your difficulties. Do not worry about being silly. Those who might call you silly have even bigger problems than you, although in a different department. Ironically, their comments can appear correct, but only in those situations where the sufferer is undergoing a purely temporary effect of idleness or lack of motivation.

My advice, which is based on my own life experience and knowledge, is that if you feel your situation is not improving, and you have tried all you can think of to change it, seek medical advice, from a qualified doctor.

If that advice does not work after two months go to another doctor!

There will be an explanation for why you feel the way you do, and it is in your interest to find it. But, don't become neurotic or paranoid about it, ie., don't focus on it all the time. Set out a plan of action and follow it. In between try and find exciting things to occupy your mind - you are able to do this.

And, let us know how you get on, if you want to.
I wish you good fortune on your quest.

All the best, Bill.

Hi rhymer,

I tried to occupy myself with video games. I was playing Super Monkey Ball for Gamecube. Everytime I mesed up, it built my anger up again and again. Eventually I went into a fit of rage and ripped apart my VCR remorte. It's in pieces now, I can't control myself when I get angry. And anger rushed out of me like a volcano all of the sudden, and that hasn't happened in a long time. I don't know the root cause of this anger. I know it's not video games, I play them all the time. I know that it could happen any time. I am having mood swings like you wouldn't believe, I mean sh*t! I ripped that remote to pieces, I wanted that fucker dead, just over video games. I'd see a doctor but, I wanna do this myself through understanding it, you know? A doctor can give me pills but, I'l only be ok while on them. What can I do?

Excellent thought Karl... (and welcome to you, also...). People can be strongly influenced by their environment. Sometimes just changing, or clearing out, one part of it is like pulling the plug from the drain. The rest of the junk just follows. I recall vividly an experience that I had not too long ago, but my "victim" was an X-box controller. To make a long story short, I got rid of the abusive husband (now an ex), and went on to successfully conquer "The big Boss". This being because my pressure levels, as a whole had went down. The small things were back to being small things. Answers are not always found in a pill, and solutions are not found by fixing only the symptoms.
You would find it most helpful to change something about your daily routine, to start. Sometimes, it can even be the smallest thing such as changing your route home. You had mentioned lack of motivation, so this is just an example of something that you're already doing, just doing it different.
By changing your daily routine, you will be receiving different external stimulation, which is the first step to finding change for internal application. I also speak from personal experience, and from my career of helping others....
If you feel that you could benefit from a doctor, but without the pills, try a naturopathic physician.
best of luck, Suzette

Try this -> Carlos Castaneda's Don Juan's Teachings

I have to agree with suzette about pill taking.

If they work but are only masking an emotional problem eg., due to abuse, divorce, a bereavement, etc. you will not really be better until you learn how to cope with the emotional problem. Then you don't need the pills.

If they work because you have an inbuilt deficiency of neurotransmitters you will feel better and need to take the pills forever [like I do].

And, whichever is the cause, the pills will give you a respite period whilst you decide if there is an external emotional cause - you will be better able to cope with it as the tablets behave as a crutch!

Many people seem to fear taking tablets, to treat the symptoms, or because they feel like failures or some such reason.

Just try making your hair look smart without using a brush or comb, or to focus your eyes without glasses [assuming you need them], or chewing your food without false teeth. It is purely a matter of perspective, and 'fashion' should not enter into it.

Find out if you need the fix. Use it if you need it, otherwise don't; it's as simple as that.

The tablets are non-addictive, and if you persist [assuming you need them] you can find a type which has no side effects for you.

I [with help from specialists] was not able to find any habitual, behavioural or emotional explanation for my depression. I took tablets whilst I searched for the reasons. I still take tablets because my body does not make enough neurotransmitters without help. My existence, ie., my whole outlook on life is different now, and I would say more normal. I have not felt like committing suicide once since I took the tablets. Life is well worth living, even without much feeling, decreased sensitivity to light, sound, smells, touch, taste, pleasure, etc.

Hi,
I was just poking around on the net and I read your problems.
I don't really know what to say, but I will try.

I agree with what everyone else had said. A doctor's diagnosis, changing your environment, doing things that you like to do that make you happy, spend time with people that make you happy. Maybe you could avoid the ones that don't make you happy... for awhile until you feel better.

I don't know if you are christian or not, but Most of all, if you ask God to help you and let him work on it, you will be suprised at the outcome. What do you think?

Thanks everyone, think I know what to do now. Only problem is my situation. I don't want to bother the people who I live with with my problems. Las, thanks for that information, I will use it to ride out my time in this environment.