i can't afford this many
i can't afford any
times are hard and i'm afraid
poison in the lemonade

hubby's up in heaven's skies
and all i hear is hungry cries
i work all day from 9 to 5
they watch themselves and try to survive

by the door when they're asleep
how many can i afford to keep
grab a pillow, contemplate
which child has to meet their fate

times are hard, and hubbys dead
bad thoughts rushing through my head
i can't afford this, i'm afraid
poison in the lemonade

there is a lot of eemotion in this poem. i personally like it a lot. it sounds like you are having a real hard time. do you have kids? my best wishes to you. good luck and good fortune!
wet_nectar

No i don't have kids. I just exagerated something my mother said to me one time.