My tears blur the lights
The tires grind the pavement
The car illegally speeds home
Running as only it can
To reach my bed
So there I can lie so still
And hide my shamed head

The music screams
And pounds my ears
"I lost myself inside your tainted smile again"
It hurts though I don’t know why
It’s not the first time I’ve felt this way
I scream at myself and just want to die

Visions in my mind
I’m ashamed to see
Visions of me seeing
The end of me

Pain on the inside
Caused by what I knew would hurt
Avoidable pain
But I pursued it anyway
Pain on the inside, I cover it up
Pain on the inside is where it will stay…
For me to pursue and feel yet again another day


© 2003 Christine Miller

Excellent poem, Crissy; good and strong, solid. It makes me feel, makes me care, makes me there.

Solidarity!

THank you very much Steven