Ever thought everyone in your family was werid? Ok, that wasnt the quesiton but i was wondering that bcuz jeez my hole family is like WOW fucked up ya know? yea, well what i was actually wondering, was damnit am i ever going to get left alone?! my mother doesnt trust me at all, i can't go to dawnita's house bcuz her mom lets her sleep around, i can't go to kelsey's bcuz she gets high' i can't ride home with Kim bcuz she doesnt know her well enuf ( io only been to school with her for 16 years) I can't go to Alyssa's house until she meets her mom and aproves, and i am using oragel as a drug. yea oragel. if she thinks im a untrustworthy b*tch i might as well act like it.. right? i mean sh*t if no matter what i do is wrong anyways i might as well do the wrong thing. My brother like just about shits bcuz our room isnt exactly clean, he wouldnt care ecpext this stupid gurl (who i happen to not like and tihnk is a slut) is coming over, im so tired of having to be perfect bcuz she KNOWS tommy is. my brother has done more sh*t than me and yet i am the one who is a troublemaking slut, and he is the perefct one, she doesnt belive he even cusses. he hits me all the time, tho i feel so horrible about tlaking abotu this bcuz i love him but i am SO goddamn tired of him hitting me. and his stupid freinds who come over make fun of me all the time, and so does he. i cant stand living in this god forsaken hosue any longer. i swear to god i will go crazy if i do. And if i have to live here, i dont even know what i will fuckin do?!

Hey Roze.. can I ask why the hell Oragel is?!

I can't at all understand your situation, I am the opposite. I am alone, and yes I quite like it, I have no siblings. My mother is very strict like yours I guess. I can't sleep around my best mates house (about 5 minutes away) at a weekend because her father smokes. I daren't tell my mother that Tahra also smokes!

I guess, at the end of the day, it's family. There is nothing you can do except take the comments from your mother like water off a ducks back. With your brother, hey I don't know. As for feeling weird about talking about this, maybe it will help, just get things out of your system instead of saying things to their face?

Anyway, take care, and find something to absorb you.

PS. I know my family is weird. Unfortunatley, that will never change.

thanx, yea i know i mean its just so hard bcuz she is so stupid and like. oragel, thenumbing stuff for oyur teeth

Roze hun, How do you use oragel as a drug? I really am interested in knowing how it is used as a drug now.

As for your faimly being weird, you are not alone. My WHOLE family is pretty much psychotic(including me)! It is extremely hard to live with the people who are making you totally crazy, BELIEVE ME I KNOW! All I can offer you as advice is to get a job, save your $ and move out as soon as you are old enough...thats what I did and it SAVED my mind!!

Good luck dear!
Love,
Dara

no thats wat my mom thinks, i hate it shes so stupid i dont know how she tihnks i would use it as one but.. oh well i geuss ill always be the bad one

oh and by the way.. i me that gurl.. the one i didnt like.. shes nice.. she is actually nice i like her