A phallus you have created in me
Despite how many times my eyes wonder
Much like my mind
Unrequetted flaws
Eradications

My pillow holds a sanctum for me
When your words prevade
Gouging my heart
Yet you are so urbane
I feel terrible about it

When you create your own symtoms
And accept all that I offer you
You'll disparange me
Hurt me
And you are so urbane

I was reading your poem and found myself lost, due to my lack of understanding of the meanings to some of the words used within, so I thought I would post the definitions here, as a way to understand your write, better.

PHALLUS:
Anatomy a. The penis. b. The sexually undifferentiated tissue in an embryo that becomes the penis or clitoris.
A representation of the penis and testes as an embodiment of generative power.
The immature penis considered in psychoanalysis as the libidinal object of infantile sexuality in the male.


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[Late Latin, from Greek phallos; see bhel-2 in Indo-European roots.]

UNREQUETTED:
No such word found. Perhaps an error in spelling, but I feel myself leaning toward a phrase, 'Unrequetted Love', perhaps?

PREVADE:
No such word found, but is similair to 'Prevail' in iterpretation; sounds like.

DISPARANGE:
No such word found, but this does sound somewhat fimailiar. Again, perhaps a mispelling?

URBANE:
Dictionary: Polite, refined, and often elegant in manner
Thesuarus: Effortlessly gracious and tactful in social manner:
bland, smooth, suave.
See style.
Characterized by discriminating taste and broad knowledge as a result of development or education:
civilized, cultivated, cultured, educated, polished, refined, well-bred.
See culture.


Perhaps, many of these words are merely metaphores, but if I may give you some suggestions?

If you are going to write poetry for yourself then all of these big word-usages are no big deal, because obviously this write makes perfect sense to you, but when sharing such a write with others, perhaps the use of regular, less complicated wording/words, or more commonly, accepted and based on familiarity should be a given here, so that your readers do not get lost in the words, and therefore misunderstanding it's intended meanings, as well as lost by these terms, unfamiliar, to some, other than yourself.

I would have rathered been able to give you a fair critique, for obviously, you put a lot of hard work and thought into this.
And perhaps, others will understand better than I, and be able to give you a fiar assessment, since I am unable at the time. However, perhaps a rewrite will also bring clarity and appreciation to you, for you, and by you, as well.

I think that I get the jist of what you are trying to convey, here, but I am so uncertain at this point.

Blessed Be!
Aiyana

Very nice. I substituted some word mentally, and it made better sense. "Fallacy" for "phallus", "unrequited" for "unrequetted". The only one that broke my brain was the last stanza. I just couldn't manage to wrap my mind around it! I'm kind of slow, though, so I might need some prodding.

~Much Love~
Megan

Taking Rosediamonds abilities to switch the words, it does make more sense to me also, as in your character is one person with you, and one person in front of everyone else.
EXAMPLE:
How could you hurt me like this, when others sees you as perfect? I want to see you as perfect, because I have such deep feelings for you, but you have betrayed these feelings, therefore you have broken me.

Are these the emotions you wanted to convey?
Because, if so, then yes, this does make more sense.
The only thig I can remotely think that the term "Disparange' me, means, is [quite possibly?] , 'broken' me?

Blessed Be!
Aiyana