Ok, so all my life my dad has never been there. Oh, sure, he lives with us, but he is such a drunken slob that he was never physically or emotionally there. His liscense is revoked and he continues to drink. He and I have never had any type of relationship outside of raw hatred for each other and he has been the inspiration to many of my poems. Thanks to him, I learned how to truley despise another human being and to this day, he is the only one i have ever felt this way towards.

Anyway, I leave for the Air Force in mid-Nov. and now lately, he has been trying to become a dad. I don't really know how to take that. Though I dismiss his pathetic attempts, my heart goes out to my mom bc once I leave, she will be stuck with him.

I don;t know what I am looking for in a response to this... Maybe I just wanted to vent a little? In any event, I would like a response none the less because I feel like one shouldn't have such intense feelings of hate towards their parent... especially since I am lucky to have both of mine alive. I show him respect out of respect for my mom, unless he and I are going at it in one of our battles...

I don't know, it is just so frustrating and heartbreaking to think of my mom being alone with that bastard.

Well Selina, it sounds like you really have a major problem with your dad. I am wondering if there are any positives about your dad that you can build on? It is difficult to build a relationship with a parent when you have such strong feelings of hatred towards one, especially if you have been so hurt by him all your life.

How does your mom feel about your dad? Does she know how much you are hurt by him, or just how much you hater him?

I gues I am short on advice here for you, but I am willing to listen and try and help you sort out your own feelings!

Love,
Dara