It really sucks that I can';t force myself to stay away from the gym. Well, at least, not work out. I go 5 days a week and this last week, I only went 3. That was the worst thing for me lol. I used ym entire weekend running and killing time on my exersize bie i have at home. I fasted the whole time and I am really okay with that.

On top of that, I have this urge in me to 'dispose'; of the few crackers I have just eated. Do anorexia and bulemia go hand in hand? It's like some sick relationship I have with these two things. Anyway, I don't have the will power to fight back and keep the ffood down.

That really makes no sence b/c I had to originally use all my will power to force myself to stop eating llol. Irony will get ya every time, eh?

Well, I really try to convice myself that this is a phase I am going through in my life... denial denial... Well, I hope it will just pass or at least leave me alone for a while...does that happen?

***BTW why did my thread get locked? I wanted to reply, but it is locked... did i do something wrong?**

Hi Selina, I dont have any idea why your thread got locked, let me look into it ok? Sorry for that! I wish you wiould reply, even if yo have to start a new thread here, ok?

I used to exercise 7 days a week, 2 times a day. I would go in th eam for 90 minutes, then in the pm for 90 minutes, sometimes more! I had a severe addiction to the gym! But then I had to eat more then I do mow, and I tell ya, I lost SOOO much more weigh tNOT exercising...makes no sence but it worked for me...lol

Let me check on the issue with the locked topic!
Love,
Dara

Strange, but easily unlocked...

i don't know why it would've been locked, but to my knowledge, there's no reason why it should've ever been locked.

HEY I thik I figured ot out! When I post a reply or something I always click to be notified of replies, that used to be thi first thing to click on under the post...now I look and I see it is to lock the post THEN to be notified of replies...OOPSE! SORRY!

Mystery SOLVED!

Love,
Dara

well thank you for unlocking it! I thought that it was odd...

and, dara, you said that you lost more weight by exersizing less?? What about your tone? Well, i'll do anything to look thinner

btw, there is a song out by A Perfect Circle called "Dissappear"... reminds me of my obsession, someone should check it out or at least get the lyrics... nice song!

I'm so thrilled that i can talk about this and not be advised...
xoxoxo

Ok, so the song's title is called "vanishing" so that is that. I am just going to post the lyrics and you can decide if you want to hear the song!
Short and Sweet!!

.:Vanishing:.
Disappear
Disappear
Higher
Higher
Into the air
Slowly disappear
No, no longer here

Disappear
Disappear
Thinner, thinner
Into the air

Never really here