Ok everyone, my goal is simple: I want to lose 6lbs by my birthday, which is April 18th. That is 4 weeks away, I believe I can do this! That will bring me REAL close to 100 lbs!  :o  
I plan to lose these lbs by eating NOTHING but lettuce, which will mean no more morning corn falkes...but I CAN DO THIS! YEAH...
Also by exercising, of course!
Weigh in will be at the end of the week, each week, until my b-day! I am PUMPED, ana is VERY anxious, and wants to shed these unwanted lbs!

SOOOO, what are YOUR goals? And how do you plan on acheiving those goals?

Love, Dara

Dara,

Your goal of 6 lbs. in 4 weeks = 1.5 lbs. per week.  Do you realize that you're aiming for the healthful, realistic sort of weight loss that physicians and nutritionists recommend?  When did you become so rational, and may I please have your autograph?  :)

My goal:  not to be a heifer on Memorial Day.

Love and kisses  :-*,
Lori

YAAY hOORAY, I am normal? LOL...well, with my plan of eating just letuce, I SURE do hope to lose more than 6 lbs! I ALWAYS aim low on my weight loss goals, SOOO, when I lose more I feel better. That is the LEAST I want to shed by April 18th! LOL, I forget everyone isnt insode my brain and knows how I think :

SOOOOO, ok, here is the deal, I REALLY want to lose, lose, lose...FAST. I have been steadily losing and I just want it to keep on going away! I have been threatened with hospitals, given guilt trips by family, but NOTHING is as strong as my will to lose weight! NOTHIG is as strong as my desire to be almost weightless! AAAAAAAAAh, the thought!

Ok, thats my deal for now!
Love, Dara

115 by may... thats 15 pounds...

ill be happier with less than 115 but at least 115...

You can do it Anne, you know why? Because you WANT it! Motivation is half the battle!

Good luck!

Love, Dara

Dara,

Hey, I understood what you meant... lol!  Anyway, my short-term goal is 13 lbs by Easter, that's April 20th.  Then, I'll be 15 lbs away from my real, honest-to-goodness goal weight!  Yay, me!  Anyway, I'm not fasting this week.  Hubby is driving me nuts watching over my shoulder.  He says I'm the "perfect size" and not to change a thing.  In my mind, I'm sure you understand, that''s code for "I know you're not eating" and "You're a cow, I just don't want to hurt your feelings."  My daughter gets disgusted with me when I say I'm a cow, or something to that effect.  It really bothers her that I am smaller than she is.  That was one of my goals!  lol...

Much love and think thin,

Danielle

Yes Danielle, I understand! When people tell me I am too thin, I believe they are telling me to lose more weight. ODD, I know, but I think I must not be thin enough, and they are too nice to tell me! LOL I KNOW it is crazy, but it is how I think!

You will be at your goal weight before you know it! Battle on!

Love, Dara!

Wow.  Goals.  It's amazing to think of it.  Since I weigh less than I ever have in my adult life, it's hard to imagine where I really want to be.  If I could just maintain this weight until Easter, I'd be really happy.  Because that would mean I was successful in losing it in the first place.  

We are taking a trip to South Dakota this summer for the Sturgis rally in August.  If I could lose 8 more pounds by then - I'd be down to 95 pounds - I'd be really, really happy.  I know it sounds like 8 pounds in so many months should be a piece of cake (Ha!).  But, I have found that losing the weight keeps getting harder and harder.  So, not only do I want to lose it by then, I want to keep it off and maintain it.  Think it's possible?  I don't know.  I'm kind of tall, so I'm not sure it's very possible.  But I'll try.  Wish me luck.

That's my goal.  It's written now, so I have to do it.

Much love,
Becky

wow goals! so much motivation in the air and determination! I wish you all nothing but success in meeting your goals!!! I would like to lose 100 pounds TODAY!!!! :-/ not 15 pound by a certain dat which would seem realistic and reasonable!! but not my goal! I want to stop shoving food in my face trying to keep the hurt at bay!! I want people to stop saying oh you will look so much better if you lost weight!! :'( You see what you see is not who you get I am more inside than some realize! I want to stop going hours without eating and almost passing out because I binged and ate so much I feel like I could live off my reserves for days!! My eating disorder for me is extreme I will go from not eating ANYTHING! to eating EVerything in site and then get comments like don't eat the plate too!  :'( Haha really funny yeah ok! or you would eat your own arm if there was no food around! where do people get these things?? ??? and the sad part is sometimes it's my dad who say's it! :-/ >:(  I am sopose to be starting on a fasting med by my doctor! but will it even work! Doubt it I have struggled with this since I was 13 now I am 23 everytime there is a stressful situation I eat! Everytime I am depressed I eat and everytime I feel guilty about eating I starve!!! I even go as far as to hide when I eat trying to keep it a secret though I don't do it so much anymore! I will shiove the food in my mouth until I can't taste the food anymore and then I curl up and cry I could never ,ake my self throw up I have tried! but i fel if I do the pain will come up with it and the whole thing about me eating is to try and keep the pain down indise of me burried so I don't have to feel it! sort of like sugar coating it pushing it aside! Does any of this make any sense!!!!! ??? :-/ Food to me was self medication it still is! It is like a person cutting themselves! I do this to dull the pain! I continue hurting myself when before I never knew it was my way of life now I know and I become apathetic and continue on! I have tried to replace it by smoking etc but it's not the same!!! :-/ Ok I am going to stop for now Lease I hope you all read this because my eating disorder is not quite like Bilimia or ana so I can never say I could fully understand what you all face :-[ but I do have empathy! My eating disorder is not well known or publicized but it is just as painful to live with!! :-[ I just wanted to get this out cuz it is so damn hard living with this everyday! :-[

Thanks for letting me share

Love always,
Chrissy

Becky,

Congrats for being at your lowest weight in your adult life. I wish I could say the same! That would mean I would have to be about 95 lbs, and I am kind of tall I guess...5'8. People are already flipping out and I am NOT that thin, but, whatever! I hear you girl! Written goal must be accomplished. I have more goals then I write about, and i have plans to acchieve them that I dont talk about, guess I am still a bit secretive in a way, but a goal is a goal and for ana, a goal MUST be mastered! Good luck my friend, and please stay healthy for your beautiful kids!

Chrissy,
I am sorry you suffer so much with your weight and with eating. I cant say I know what you feel like, but I do knw what it feels like to have food be your enemy. It is sad that people make comments to you and make you feel bad. People are terribly insensitive at times...well, MOST times! If you set a goal to lose the weight, I believe you can do it! Set your mind to it, and let NOTHING get in your way! ANd I do mean NOTHING!

Good luck my dear!
Love, Dara

Dara,

You're a hair taller than me, so if you've been at 95, then I'm sure I can achieve that goal, too!  Thanks for the encouragement.

Chrissy,

Any ED is difficult.  Although I may not understand the full realm of what it's like for you, I do understand how difficult it is.  Food is used in many ways by many people. My relationship with food is different than yours, but that doesn't mean it's any more difficult.  I wish you didn't have a struggle. I wish I didn't have a struggle.  For that matter, I wish no one suffered from an ED at all.  It is brutal and cruel.  I wish you solace and happiness, Chrissy.  You are in my thoughts today.

Much love,
Becky

Well girls, It is April, a new month, a new start! I plan on making april a very successful month for myself. It is my birthday in April, and i am NOT happy to be another year older...SOOO, I might as well make myself happy by celebrating my old age with LESS weight! That will make me glad!

So being we are talking about goals here, and it is a new month...why not make my goal of losing 6 lbs DOUBLE! How bout 12 lbs? WHY THE HECK NOT I say! Then I will be smiling like this ;D

Ok, I am silly, sorry!


Love, Dara

Okay, Dara!

I'm with you on this one.  Although my goal for the month will be 4 pounds.  It will be half of my goal AND if I do it, I will have broken 100 pounds.  I've never done that, so I'm on it!

Keep me posted how you're doing.  Good luck!

Much love,
Becky

Thanks Becky, you inspire me! I will keep you posted, and you do the same, ok? Maybe we will reach our goals together? Though today has been REAL ROUGH...I still feel glad because I know when I feel sick that means ana is in FULL gear! You know what I mean? I am SURE you do!

Love, Dara

Dara,

I have still be getting severe headaches and last night, it got so bad that my stomach was upset.  As terrible as I felt, I couldn't help but think that it was good thing.  If I got sick enough, maybe I'd be able to lose the weight without much effort.  And certainly, I wouldn't eat.

I do feel better this morning and had a half serving of oatmeal to gear me up for the day.  So, yes, I do understand that feeling sick is a good thing in our disordered minds.

Good luck today.
Much love,
Becky

Thanks Becky!

Yeah, whenever I am feeling real weak or light headed, I know ana is HAPPY! That makes me push on and persist further! Nothing like ana motivation I tell you!

Love, Dara

So, how we doing girls? I am down 3 lbs, I hope to lose the other 3 in FAST! I am doing my best to restrict and exercise! WHATEVER it takes, you know!

How everyone else doing?

Love, Dara

Dara,

I'm not doing so good. I've gained two pounds.  I think I have slowed my metabolism down too much.  I need to trick it, but the only way I know of to really get it going again is to eat - I really don't want to do that.  Any suggestions?  I already exercise on top of constantly burning the candle at three ends.  I live off of caffeine and ephedra (I know - don't tell me how bad that is, especially in combination).  Any other ideas?

Much love,
Becky

Becky,

How about eating things like lettuce and rice cakes. Hustr to trick your body into thinking it is getting food. You know lettuce has like 5-10 calories and there are some real airy rice cakes that are only 35 calories each.

Exercise is the way to go for sure..keeps the metabolism running like a machine! Try to eat small things if you can that have no calories and maybe that will work. Lettuce, pickles, celery, things like that...I know it is not easy. I am sorry you are struggling now with this. Please keep me posted and take care of yourself ok? Rememebr your beautiful girls need their mom!

Love,
Dara

stacker pills or yellow jackets will rais it but its temporary

:-/whoa Stackers are really dangerous! :-[ I also heard of Yellow jackets but i would advise against taking these as solutions to eating temporary or not because they contain a drug called Ephedra....that has even killed someone!This is true it was in the news my friends was taking them and when he heard about this he quit! It has properties like caffiene that is soposed to boost your engery.  It raises your blood pressure and causes your heart to beat much faster and if you smoke it could even cause stroke heartattack or death...

Please be careful when taking this drug...... :'( :-[


Love always,
Chrissy....(angelita)

:-/whoa Stackers are really dangerous! :-[ I also heard of Yellow jackets but i would advise against taking these as solutions to eating temporary or not because they contain a drug called Ephedra....that has even killed someone!This is true it was in the news my friends was taking them and when he heard about this he quit! It has properties like caffiene that is soposed to boost your engery.  It raises your blood pressure and causes your heart to beat much faster and if you smoke it could even cause stroke heartattack or death...

Please be careful when taking this drug...... :'( :-[


Love always,
Chrissy....(angelita)

im just saying you can if you want...i dont condone or condem it...

It just seems like the more I work to get below 100 pounds, the harder it gets. It's not fair!  Okay, so no one ever said that life was fair.

Here's some of the strategies I've taken lately -

I found some whole wheat crackers that have 10 calories a piece.  I know that's kind of high, but it gives me the little bit of boost that I need when I feel like I need it.  So, I keep it to no more than 5 crackers per day (50 cals).

I eat one apple per day. I would like to try to get away from this because fruits are so high in natural sugars.  Even though it's a negative calorie food I always feel guilty for eating it. (about 80 cals, although this is probably a high estimate - I go for the smallest ones I can find).

Of course, lots and lots of water.

And at least 2 cups of green tea per day.  Green tea helps to boost the metabolism, too.  (I estimate about 2 calories per cup, although this again, is probably high).

So, the requirements for myself each day total approximately 134 calories per day.  It may vary slightly depending on how many crackers I eat, but usually I max it out at five.  I can't live without coffee and I figure about 5 calories per cup.  If I drink four cups of coffee, that would raise that to 154 calories per day.

If I feel the need, I will add something else.  Sometimes, it will be a salad for dinner or maybe a small piece of meat and a vegetable.  I always try to keep the total daily count under 500 calories.

Once in a while, I will treat myself to something really good.  Today, I'm going on a splurge and having some Thai food for lunch (Thai food is my achilles heel).  I'm opting for the tofu pad Thai.  Maybe it will be enough to trick the old metabolism and get it going again.  Then I can fast for two days next week (maybe three if I can swing it) and make up for the damage done.

I would LOVE to break 100 pounds.  I already take ephedra pills, so stackers and yellow jackets are out of the question for me.  Any other suggestions to get there?

Much love,
Becky

I just thought of something else!  What an idea!

My hair has finally reached my waist.  I could cut it to just above the shoulders again and probably drop two pounds.  What a quick (and easy!) way to lose weight!  

Okay, I probably won't do that since I've worked so hard to grow it - but at least I can entertain that idea and know it's an option if I had to.

Now, I'm done talking -

Becky

Becky,

I totally agree with you! It sems the closer to 100 lbs, the harder it is for me as well to lose.  I guess our bodies REALLY want to hang onto the ...., well, you know!

You make me  laugh as I have real long hair too, and I DID consider cutting it too! But NAAAAAAH, It took me to long to grow it back...gues I will just think of some OTHER way!

Good luck to ya,

Love,
Dara

Almost all tea is 0 cals unless you had stuff to it and if you need to add sugar theres stuff called splenda which doesnt have the stuff that causes cancer and is 0 cals too....

Not all tea is 0 cals, and I would rather estimate too high than too low.  It helps keep me where I need to be.  I know!  I'm a little extreme sometimes - part of my OCD.  Everything has to be perfect.  If there is a possibility that something has calories in it - it's counted!

Thanks, though!  I would rather not count the calories, but I want to be honest with myself.  I am accountable for everything put into my mouth.

Much love,
Becky

Becky,

I hear ya! Accountability is majorly important with us who live with ana. I believe all of us with ana are also OCD sufferers. I KNOW i have OCD in many areas of my life, but the eating is the most extreme. I too, do not eat ANYHTING without knowing clories, fat, carbs, protien, etc...Also, I must read all ingredients and check the calorie count on the package each time I use it, incase it happened to change whil in my fridge, you know...

This lifestyle is a dedication to structure, consistancy and adherance to strict rulse, which have severe penalties for us if the rules are broken!

It is very difficult, but this is how we live...
Love and strength to all,

Dara