I know 145 sounds a lot... but I am a man very nearly six feet tall, and it was my goal weight.  And I have reached it!  Hooray!  It is also my house number, 145 N. Cleveland St.  I suppose that's why it was my goal weight... in any case, I am really happy to be here, at 145, and to be an open honest ana here in my little sister's forum.  

All my love to all,

from skinny +Steven

Hey Skinny!

So gald you posted here! Seems we have lost touch with some of our ana friends ???

I can appreciate how proud you are to be at your "goal" weight. My only question to you, is one that haunts my own mind: Has your goal weight just changed to a lower number? Mine always does! We can be happy only momentarily, then we must raise the bar, or should I say, LOWER the bar for us ana's!

All my love to you, and CONGRATS!

Dara

Hey Greyhound Girl, my beautiful little sister... yes, it did, actually.  It's 144 today, and suddenly I find myself thinking about 140.  I know I'm crazy, but I also know you understand me.

I'm sorry I missed a few messages from you today... I'm all reclusively ruminating about a new book, having completed the first one, finally, letting go of it at last; ana control, you know...

I'm feeling especially messed-up today, actually, although I think I'm writing pretty well (see what you think, would you?  Your opinion means everything to me...)  But, at least, I made my goal weight, and then some.

Maybe everything will be alright.  I hope so.

I love you so much, and am so happy to have you in my life.  You're the greatest, my Greyhound Girl.

I am glad you have made 144! What an accomplishment. I have been mixed up in family hell today, so dont worry about missing my messages. Somehow, I survived today...

All my love,
Dara

I have held strong and steady at 144 for several days now!  People are remarking how thin I am... this pleases me very much...

I wanted to be 140, but I have plateaued here at twelve dozen, which is not a bad weight really... I like the number, aesthetically, mystically.  

Now I must try to write good poems, and be a very thin and very good poet.

All my love, respect, and solidarity to all, especially to those of you who understand.

Thanks.

I understand...

I LOVE YOU, DARA

I am in unbreakable soli-Dara-ty with you

Always

Thanks, I love you too!

Love,
Dara

142 today...

I can't help it; I have to try to make 140.

I feel so pure, so light.

It helps me to write better to be so thin.

I know you understand, Dara...

And I know this all must sound really weird to the normals.



I love you, little sister!

OOOOOH, I understand! And I am happy for you, I kow what you mean abuo tfeeling pure and light, that is what we aspire to be! Others think we are crazy, and maybe we are, but OOOH it feels SOOOOOO good to get on that scale and KNOW you are closer to nothing at all!

I love you Slim,
Dara!