Some of you know that I had a terrible trial this past week.  I was faced with many difficulties and made to face my abusers.

I made it through. It is finally behind me so now I can start to look forward and begin to do what I need to do for me.

It was really quite strange.  I really was dreading seeing my mother again, but when I actually did, I felt nothing for her.  If anything, I felt sorrow and pity for her.  

My father told me,  "Go tell your mother that you love her.  She has been under a lot of stress."  All I could do was to look at him and stare.  I wanted so much to tell him I couldn't tell her that, as it would be a lie.  What a shame - they are both in denial about many, many things.

But anyway, the most difficult times are behind me.  I have the future to look forward to and a family to love - my children are my universe.

Thanks for listening.  It does get easier.

Love to all,
Becky

Becky, you have such a positive atitude about all this! I am so glad the worst is behind you, and that you have your dear children to hug and love! That must be the most healing hug in the world!!!

I am in totalk understanding of your feelings towards your mother, as I ahve the same ones towards mine. I feel absolutely nothing for her, as if she was not mu moter for the past almost 27 years. I don't know if iI love her deep insde, or if I just have to let her go...So confusing, isn't it?
But you made it, and you are a better person for your struggle! I am glad you posted here, I was thinking about you often! You really help me alot by writing about your abusers, as it gives me an opportunity to learn how others handle theyir abusers, and it allows me to talk about my own experiences.
Please stay strong, and keep on posting!
All my love, Dara

Thank you, Dara.  Your posts always give me strength, too.  With such a wonderful support network, it does become easier to deal with difficulties we encounter regularly.

Much love,
Becky