OK EVERYONE! I decided to start another thread in this forum dedicated to another area in my life where I continue to struggle and maybe there are others out there who like me struggle to just to breath at times. I used to take it for granted until one fateful day I lost control.
For some of you who may know me and for those who don't I tend to be honest about myself and things I deal with and I strongly believe that by sharing it it will promote and help others and that my friends is one of the reasons for this forum to poromote and help others heal and continue to do so.

I never had problems in my childhood or even my teen years but when I hit adulthood which for me instead of being 18 hit me when I was 21 I was behind everyone my age in many ways I never really consider myself to have my fist dance until let's say last opposed to 16 for most people but here i go angain getting off track I dealt with so much in my life so here is another piece of the puzzle that makes me who I am and who is is I became

I would get into arguments with my ex boyfriend as he was abusive and I guess it was then when I really realized I had a problem.

I would feel like fainting and my heart would race I felt like I was dying every breath I took felt like my last and there felt like 200 tons of pressure on my chest. I felt weak and out of control I got really dizzy and would black out which would be due to my hypervenelization which happens when you don't get enough oxygen to the brain to help the blood flow and circulate normally. sometimes I would even lose feeling in my extemities which is very very scary.  I would even start coughing uncontrollably between sobs and there was even a time where I vomited on myself trying to call 9-1-1 I was told this was part of the hypervenilation stage if the attacks get to bad I would even pass in and out of consciencousness. It is all a very scary ordeal.I was put on medication which helps with this someday now I can go without taking my medication which is simular to Lithium which is used to treat people with Bipolor disorder. Many ask me if i have this disorder as some of the sypmtoms are the same going into a fit of rage when you are unable to breath you lose control. I also had several EKG tests and was told by one of the ER doctors that though I was to young to be having a heart attack or problems with my heart they had to run the EKG to find out.....it is scary to think that at 21 you could be having a heart attac even at 22. I would spend hours at the hospital because of these attacks and stress and arguing would bring on worst cases. sometimes it was so hard not to argue or get upset but I knew if I did I would regret it! These attacks took alot of energy out of me and usually after a bad attack lsleep would follow I even turned to my medication as a way to gain sleep just so not to get my boyfriend upset and avoid thes attacks. I was even questioned if I needed to put in a pysch ward as I would break down in tears about the arguments that led up to this attacks people would think I was nuts or looney as these attacks would sometimes leave as quicky as they come and as soon as I started breathing normally on my own I was fine and could be send home but I knew in time it would happen all over again so I lived in fear all the time I hope by sharing this it helps others to understand or if people experience this they can know there is someone out there who is or has experienced the same exact thing! Thank you for letting me post my story maybe in time I will post more as this is still very fresh for me but I haven't had a bad attack or episode in a few months so I am healing too in my own time.
                                                             Love always,
                                                               Chrissy

we are not crazy we are just sorry we can't breath sometimes.. There is a difference you know?!~Chrissy (as I continue speaking out about my panic attacks and their horror)