Ok see i'm just so tired of people always saying how people (Jason) like me and i'm just all shutup dont be dumb and then they always say that shit and i hate it bcuz i know its not true and i say taht and they laugh and say are you s tupid? and grr.. i just hate the way that i'm the one they make fun of al the time. i mean like when they say my e-mail profile says something about fuckin gurls and shit i hate it.. i mean.. just jeez thy always say that shit and it hurst me and they dont care...

I know what it's like. I know how you feel. You want to get a point across and no one listens to you and either think you are stupid or think that you're being a bitch. The idea of you being nice, kind and a person who deserves respect frightens them so much, or bewilders them so much in their perspective that they just defend themselves in saying that you're inferior or stupid. A lot of people enjoy drawing people out the way they see them or want to see them. Always know that they're not thinking very open but narrow and in a way even like it and enjoy it.. because it sooo much easier to be stupid, sarcastic, insensitive and not respectful than anything else.
If they'd really know how much it hurts you, if they'd feel what you feel they wouldn't do it but obviously they don't or don't want to because it's easy to be ignorant.
I'm afraid it's easier not to offend them or get mad because people like that find it strangely amusing when one is frustrated and appearing like a dramatic.
You know you are not a dramatic. They don't seem to understand you because they don't wish to.

Only the best,
+Franziska

Well and wisely spoken, +Franziska!  I am so proud of you!

i have to say that i agree with everything franziska said.
well said  ;D

wow thanx.. thas like how i feel too.. lol i try hard to make people understand that wat they say actually hurts but i cant. and like you said they dont want to... i hate that they dont want to bcuz that just givesme another reason to believe they dont care about me.. see what i mean? and i mean they are always saying ho i fucked james (which i didnt andi wouldnt heis nappy and rude he is the one who says that about my profile) and ack i mena people now tihnk im a slut bcuz she wotn shut up and all i did was giveone guy head and i actully really liked him but noooooo damnit im so conufsed andi hate the way people are rude.. ya know?

A lot of people don't know what they're talking about when they talk about another person because they don't know what's going on inside that persons head or what this person feels, so no one should dare to even judge anyone before knowing them off by heart.

But let me tell you that I have slept with guys who were my friends. They liked me but didn't like what I did although they were involved in it as well. In order to make themselves feel better they tried to draw me as some kind of a slut who'll please anyone.
I thought they didn't care about me, they did.. but just wanted to defend their OWN behaviour.

You might as well critisize them for their own fantasies, I'm sure that's what they dream about.  ;)

Only the best,
+Franziska

thanx.. i mean jeez haha tehre fantisyeis? (how do you spell that shit) not with mE! haha not with me i mean you have kidna seen me right? haha well see i just hate the way everyone acts and .. id ont know i dont evenknow how to explain it. and i have a ffredn over and so i cant get al emotional right nwo anyhow... so ill talk later ok?> ROze

I always have time. ;D

haha thanx.. is that ur picture on there? your very pretty....;D well yea anywas.. ok... now you all have heard me complain abuot my dad, lol bcuz im such a baby and i mean wat bothers me is even my frends dont encourage me much, i mean sure there are some taht do like ann(Sweet_Lil_Ann) but most of them just call mea  slut and stupid and dumb and i just like hate it.. lol i dont like to complain about all this shit and if eel realy bad when i do.. but i mean jeez i cant help it. it just hurts SOO bad... ya know? i mean yea people get hurt alll the time and i shoudlnt be like any different and complain and think i have it SOOO much worse then them right? well jeez i mean i know im ugly, but NEVER having a boyfrend is  hard, i will be through ANOTHER year without a boyfrend, again. lol i mnea i know that sounds all trivial and shit but for me it just feeds on my self esteem getting even worse, and you cant you can not say that they are too scared i'll turn them down and so they wont ask me out or to prom (not like i'd go) or anything bcuz i am so desperate for a date i would say yes to anyone lol wel i would want Jason most bcuz i just.. i tihnk about him all the time and when i am with him i feel happy even if im in a bad mood, he can make me happy, and you know how you get this feeling about how everything is perfect even though its not? well tahts what it feels like.. i dont want to be and i know im not, one of those sappy people who think they are in love with eevery guy  they like, but i really think that i love Jason.. how can you tell for sure? we have not had any kind of relashinship becasue i donth think he likes me and so i WILL NOTTT ask him out.. but people are all he likes you roze... well if he likes me then he owuld tell me and he owuld ask me out bcuz he noes i like him bcuz my stupid ass "frends" can not keep there gosh damn mnouth shut about it and that REALLY pisses me off, i mean i hate it soo much when you tell a frend something and they are not suposed ot sya anything but they do? well thas how he knows, so i say if he liked me he would ask me out.. simple as that .., right? how can i love him, when he dont even like me? ROoze*



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Remember that your life will not get much better once there is a boyfriend around. It might actually even get worse.. (hehehe) but nevermind that,

Like I said. Being with someone isn't everything. Being lonely and having no Boyfriend doesn't mean you should feel too depressed about it.
Your self esteem should have nothing to do with how people think about you but how you feel about yourself.
If you are confident in being the person that you are, and that you know that you are things will be easier. Make sure you're not ignoring your feelings, depression and don't ignore it when people are hurting you.
You can approach your "friends" with "Why do you feel the need to incite my anger."
Usually people like that don't really know much about pain because they may usually occupy themselves with things that may make other people feel bad to hide from their own imperfections. People like that don't know much of what's just and what's not.
But don't let them destroy you.
It's more comfortable to stand above it than below it.

Don't worry too much about the boyfriend and Jason deal. as in.. what does he think of me... now he thinks... now they think, concentrate on what's going on inside of you. Take a good look at Jason and decide if he is worth it. Take a good look at Jason and calculate the possibilities, but don't worry too much about it.
What will be, will be.

wow...yea .. he is definantly worth it... i jus wish he would think that about me..haha but with my frends..jeez im just tired of thinking ihave to be perfect around them..ya know? and if ihad a boyfrend, i would be able to feel as though i belonged, cuz everyone here has a boyfrend cept me again, still. i mean i may think "THINK" peopl flirt with me but either im rong or they change their minds, bcuz i aint got a bf yet lol. and when pepl keep saying stuff about me i get used to it and totally take it to heart.. and bleive tht about msyelf.. wel i better go im in class and i think im aobut to get cought so.. bye bye ROoze*

Roze,

I hope things get better for you soon! I know it stinks being the only one of your friends without a boyfriend, but your time will come too! I know that dosent help AT ALL, I am sure you hear it a lot!

My neice is 12 and she is going through this too. She has boys who like her and want to be her boyfriend, but she don't really like THESE boys, but she feels like she is the only one of her friends without a boyfriend, so she should date a guy even if she dont like them...lol! She is young still, but it's funny how it is starting younger and younger!

ANYHOW...good luck and keep posting!

Love,
Dara

haha yea.. she should meet my brother!!!! he is 13!! hah yea.. i just feel so..used and stupid..