I'm giving up...on caring anymore. Everything and everyone i care about seems to be going from my life. My friends.....my love...everything. I'm hurting so much...and no one can help me. I don't know if raven is still my friend...haven't heard from her for over a week. My new friend Ann is so sick...I may lose her. And Chrissy...I think I'm losing her to her "roomate." I feel so alone now...so lost. I don't know what to do...no. I do know what to do....but I'm too scared to do that. But it would be so easy for me...to end this pain...this life. I want someone to help me....but I know that no one cares anymore. I'm sorry.

we ALL care about you!! I love reading your posts on here and you seem so caring and friendly. please don't do anything bad! please... :'( things will get better i promise. I know it probably doesn't seem like they will but trust me..they will. please don't..

Love Always,
Ann

oh god dont you ever go away from me! you were the one who was there for me! the one who told me i mattered and the one who helped kleep me from killing myself! dont you ever ever do anything stupid dmanit! dont! jut DONT! you kept me from doing things that are stupid and ill be damned before YOu do anything stupid ok? Please.. you dont know how much i enjoy comeing on here and listening to you talk.. please please please dont ever leave me I care about you and will NEVER leave you

!Te amo mi amor Tu eres mi amor y mi vida! You are my soulmate and my sunshine~Angelita~



James is ok.. It is so wonderful to see how people care and to see how he has touched so many people! It is soul beautiful! he is just going through a rough time right now but rest assured he knows how much he is loved and cared for here! Thank you for your warmth and tenderness it makes sunshine brighter you know?!



LOve yas,
Chrissy

Annmarie, Roze, don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. I've been going through some very rough times lately. I've been afraid of losing people that mean the world to me.

Thank you both for caring about me so much. i am lucky to have you as my friends.

Love,
'
James

I think it is the rest of us that are lucky to you have you roachman. and others like you.

Ann

 I can tell just from this post that you don't really want to give up like you say, and you just need help. It's like when people call suicide hotlines..... you are calling out for help or attention, and aren't giving up yet.

 This is not meant as durrogatory. It is a good thing you are not thinking seriously about giving up on the people that care about you. Understand that that would be selfish, since those people need you as much as you need them. To give up on them would be equivalent of putting them through what you're going through.

Hi!

I don't know how much it would mean to you, listening to a stranger, but sometimes it's good to know that others go through the same things as you......
I know what it feels like to be alone and sad, and that feeling in the pit of your stomach, which encroaches onto your life in every possible way.....i know that feeling when one minute your life is filled with people you love and you care for (it doesn't really matter if they care or love, just how they make you feel ) and suddenly they leave and you are alone. I KNOW I FEEL and I know that feeling most of all, when nothing in your life makes sense and living the least sense of all!!!

But please, please believe me, that so far this year I've gone through all those feelings, and although I'm still alone, and often sad, I also know now, that everything happens for a reason, and in the end, it all happens to teach you one thing. If you start loving, knowing and accepting yourself, those feelings will diminish, and you will become a better, stronger more empathetic person, who in turn will make the lives of others better.
I guess what I'm trying to say through all my babbling here (sorry i get carried away sometimes) is that everything happens for a reason, including the decline and vanishing of loved ones. But everything happens for a reason....take heart and take care, and know that while you may feel lonely, you are not alone with your feelings.....we all feel that way more often than not....because life is a journey, a search for who you are.

xxxx greetings   8)

ps sorry for the monologue, but your post touched me!

no. dont even be stupid dont even think your not going to care anymore there is no wya i willl let you get away with that you know it. i love you. people here love you. and you will not sacrafice our love just becasue you dont want to care.