Ok I don't know whether I need advice or wether I just need to say some stuff. So I'll put it here and people can do their own judging of the situation.
     
     God, I feel so odd... im so happy right now that I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. everything I feel right now when Im around or think about her.... I feel like im in a dream. Everything is so surreal.... It's amazing how I feel so connected so soon....
Yet even though im so happy and feel so surreal, I seem to cry every fucking day. And maybe its just me but that makes it even stranger. (btw I normally never cry) I just I dont know I feel lost in a dream world where sometimes it wonderful, and other times a nightmare.

On another note, I have this great urge to tell my brother Ian that Im gay. But then again I don't. I dont know thats just on something else really.

The situation you find yourself in rings bells for me.

I find that when something I have longed for, for a while, becomes available, real, I feel a fear of enjoying it lest it suddenly disappears, beyond my control.

It takes a while before you realise that this new situation is stable, and growing, and will hopefully last some considerable time.

In a way, I think I am lucky to feel this effect, because it makes me work harder to ensure that the outcome is successful.

Regarding what you tell your brother [or any other relative or friend], I think you are the best judge on the timing.
Your own mental strength, the recipients current mood, the effect of waiting too long before opening up will affect your decision.
Possibly one thing you could do is decide now, or soon, just what you will say to the person; how will you broach the subject? When you do then tell, you will have some groundrules set so that you can concentrate on their reactions, and help  them through the news. You will then, hopefully, get support yourself in the future!


I hope these words are helpful.
All the best , Bill.
PS I am not a judge of other people.