thanks for the help and advise but i felt the need to erase this  8)

well, so you all like kissed and stuff, but then he said he didnt know if he wanted to be together? am i getting this right?? well i thnk that maybe if you give him time he will realize that he likes you.. i dont know him so i cant say.. but.. thas wat i tihnk ROze

i've been "with" him for 9 months now........just the other day he was talking about not being sure if he's ready to settle down now, or if he wants to stay single a bit longer.....but he never said whether he was refering to me or just ingeneral saying so-anyway we haven't talked since then-i called him the next day but he was eating and said he'd giove me a call back but didn't-which really shouldn't be a surprise to me  :-/

i just don't know what to do anymore-idk if i should talk to him and keep at this like i have for the past 9 months or if i should just let it go-let him contact me, if he wants to.........idk-it just hurts so much and i feel so lost

thas excalty how  i felt with cim, only we ened it faster then nine months.. i really hope he likes you bcuz you seem like such a nice person and you DONt derserve this kinda shit.. just set him down, one on one, when your alone together, and sak him startigh out if he is using you, or if he likes you, cim told me he was using me, im sure he will tell you the truth  Roze

Thanks

yeah i know-i should have sat him down and talked about everything a LONG time ago.....but the truth is....i'm sacred b/c i don't want what we have (even if it's next to nothing) to end, i don't want to face the fact that i might not be able to see him again

but also-i have a really problem with expressing myself outloud-i just cannot do it and idk why-insecurieites are a B****

Hmmmm....yeah well guys are bastards anyways.
Trust me I know I am a guy.
But I really don't consider myself to be like any of those bastards.

But hey if I were you I wouldn't really wait around for him. Sounds like he was just using you.
But you really should talk things over with him if you get a chance to.

not all guys are bastards-just the ones that i like  :-/  :'(

does seem as though he was using me, and maybe i knew it all along but just refused to see it b/c i didn't want to  :-[ idk......

yeah i'd like to talk things out with him-even if it's done it'd be nice to have some closure ya know-but for that to happen he'll have to contact me.....i'm done chasing after him to talk


:'( ......love is a 4 letter word >:(

hmph.. yea guys can be bastreds.. but i still tihnk you should tlak to him nd find out.. you guys ouwld pry be lcosre.. Roze

i know we need to talk-I need to open my mouth and talk to him about it

we talked the other day over the comp-but just BSing ya know-i want to talk to him face to face about this

but i have an honest problem w/ expressing my feelings to others-expression of anykind-i can't speak it-i can write it fine-but i can't speak it to save my life  :-/ idk i have issues i suppose......wish i could go thru life writing poems to everyone to tell them how i feel-but no i graduated 3rd grade-no more passing the "i like him" notes-no, now i am supposed to be able to voicemy feelings...

....well guess what i can't and i don't know why  :'(

damnit ....idki hate this b/c i know what i need to do and that i need to do it-but i just can't get myself to do it

yea i know how you feel, it's hard for me to express my feelings too, but you just have to do it. i did it wit cim and it actualy helped.. really it does help.. if you just do it, and face tof ace is MUCH MUCH better.. Roze