I Mean to Find Some Meaning

Is the way I feel the way I am or am I the same
When I feel proud of myself as when I wallow in shame?
If only for the sake of convenience I wish I knew
Is who I am or who I feel I am the one to blame
For the manifold absurdities attached to my name?

Though I know nothing I am comforted that no one knows
And everyone should be in solidarity with me
As we try to hold on to what may come yet never came
But the sad part is that there were dreams which never came true
And there were nightmares which woke into dark reality

If I ever found some meaning I would share it with you
Though from my past experience I seem unable to
Hold on to what may come for very long before it goes
But if I could I really would whatever else I do
And I mean to find some meaning here before I get through

+Steven Curtis Lance



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