Hi I know pretty much nothing about neurons and how cells can change, but I had something happen to me after being sick in the hospital. I was admitted first because my throat was closing and I couldn't get air. It took 3 visits to the emergency room after 5 or 6 days of constant hyperventilation and suffering ( orthostatic hypotension and ringing in the ears also) before they finally took me seriously and admitted me. They treated me for acid reflux... which wasn't the problem... but anyway after I got out I started feeling this weird closed in feeling, or like my head is trapped in a box and my entire visual feild seems like its reading everything in a different way then before, I can still recognize what, and where things are, but its just somehow different. I had an mri, ct, eeg, baer evoked potential, lumbar puncture, and for some weird reason an emg... nothing showed on any of the tests. I been to a few psychiatrists, I been on risperdol, fluoxotine, klonopin, welbutrin, and effexor, none of those did anything except make me dizzy and its been 8 months so far and it hasn't changed. I already know that what ever it is it will never get better unless I find it and correct it somehow. My question is could the reason have anything to do with neurotransmitters or peptides? Like the cells aren't functioning right or something? I been doing as much research as I can on my computer and the more I learn the less sense this problem makes to me. I'm also waiting for the results from a pet scan I just blew $1500 out of my own pocket on aswell.

What is your typical diet?

Hello Larwall5,

Reading your post of symptoms give me the impression that you may be suffering from dissociation.
Can I suggest that you do a search on google and see if the symptoms listed match your own feelings.

I checked all over the internet and I checked dissociation, though it seems like the people with dissociative disorders suffer from anxiety a lot more often, and that they feel like they are "going crazy" according to what I have read. I don't feel like I am going crazy at all, I just feel this terrible thing that is with me 24/7. I have actually been treated for depersonalization once by the 1st psychiatrist I went toand he gave me ssri's but I didn't notice anything different than how I feel now. Unfortunately so far nothing has worked. Is it normally this hard to find the right drugs for weird stuff like this, as far as I know there are only a few types of neurotransmitters they seem to use for neuro/ psychiatric medication.

I take vitamins in the morning and I usually eat 2 meals a day... mostly whatever I feel like (meat mostly) but I do eat fruit, vegatables to. I've changed my diet around a lot to eating only non acid forming stuff like vegetables and white meat but slowly changed back over to eating the same stuff since before I was admitted. Nothing has changed from my diet unfortunately. Knowing that changing my diet isn't making a difference is what leads me to believe maybe cells are somehow not doing the right thing. But I have no clue how it got this way since diet plays such a big role in everything. Dysfunctional cells don't level themselves out all the time just by changing your diet right? Because unless something is not working right I don't know how it would be possible for me to feel this way.

Can you describe this a little more?

What vitamins are you taking? Do you drink alcohol?

I suggest you try taking Pycnogenol--especially if you fail to modify your diet.

Yeah I'll try but its not easy. I have to put it in a category of how some kind of drug would make you feel. I only say that because I know certain drugs can make you feel ways that are really weird and almost undescribable. When I say my vision is different, I mean I'm not hallucinating, there are no changes in colors or shapes, my vision is still 20/20. Its like a fuzzy sensation that I FEEL through my stream of vision, but its not limited to just being that simple. Someone told me once about when they took a certain drug and it effected them in a way where they felt like they couldn't tell the difference between what their eyes were seeing and an image their mind was seeing. Like they couldn't tell what was around them, and they just had this trapped in feeling of claustrophobia like there is no way out. I realized that it sounded almost like how I feel, even though I am conscious of my surroundings, it seems similiar. A lot of people would just think thats an anxiety attack because they don't think deep enough on it. I know it might be hard to picture that for someone who has never had this problem, but I dont have much to work with when I'm trying to use words to describe it. I notice it more when I'm outside in wide open areas. But do you know of any neurological or psychiatric problems that could make someone feel so awful and weird? Its not typical whatever it is. I tried dissociation but all the people with that seem to have visual disturbances like they r on mushrooms, and feel like they r going crazy. I'm not having those weird visual changes that they describe and I don't feel like I am going crazy I just want this thing to go away, and the SSRI's didn't help at all.

I take centrum vitamins in the morning. I don't drink alcohol much. But I'll look that up.