QUOTE(Vee @ Oct 01, 2007, 01:59 AM)

Hi Ant - I agree there is this need to fulfill a warm fuzzy feeling of reinforcement...Have you considered that perhaos it is necessary to go one step lower in the evaluation of it. What is the cause of needing this warm fuzzy feeling? Am I saying to myself - i am too fat - ? (anorexia) - I am not beautiful enough (addiction to plastic surgery) ...I beleive that these thoughts of self are what underlies any addiction... I call it My-Tunes.
I have posted more on my blogspot..Ill give it to you after your feedback...
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Back again, My puter has been dead for a while & am busy out side this forum, may not be back for some time after this post as am busy.
Vee, will attempt to answer your question after addressing Orbz first.........................
Orbz, Thank you for the consideration, & offer of support....................
rather than using physiology to answer how the mind can be measured, I prefer to talk in psychological models of how I feel the mind may be structured?
A digression for those of you who like reading = {To me, my concept of ego must be looked at as almost a separate entity with in my self, which is the main obstacle between my objective self and my long term goal of being at peace with my self.
Before attempting to answer some of your questions. I will attempt to express how 'my ego' is influencing this process, just to give you an idea of how clever my ego' is at creating addictions, & then hiding their real point of action and disguise their motives, in order to save itself from being identified and or isolated.
'My ego' is acting on my conscious mind at present, when I look at answering your questions. In trying to express my mind about the issue of ; "addiction mechanisms".
I feel that the thing I call 'ego' is constantly at work trying to sabotage my thinking, by creating typos, loss of mental focus and fatigue etc., as I try to focus on the process in mind, this ego is what I am trying to let go of and hence it is capable of defending itself using this thing I call addictions ( to me, the ego was created by the lies conditioned into me during my child hood and the ego is the guardian of the lies)? as I have to put my self in each example and feel how the ego is working to explain to you what I feel is the process.}
With out going into all your logic and understanding, posed in previous posts, I feel that the point is being lost 'in addiction'? i.e. to get an understanding of the mechanism of how addiction works, is best not to get caught up in the addiction process itself. It in itself is an addiction = avoidance.
To me, getting a bigger picture of addiction means going cosmic, spiritual, vague, off with the fairies etc is necessary?
By this I mean, out side of the day to day life of getting a meal, a place to sleep and clothes to wear, I have a bigger picture
If I were to look at my long term goal i.e. getting to a point of peace, with out distraction in all situations...... ?
Then from my point of view, anything which, distracts me from dealing with my obstacles (mental obstructions) , hence slowing my progress towards that goal, I would term avoidance (avoidance - having possibly two components i.e. choosing to not deal with an obstacle as a temporary measure to get breathing space vs. the mental avoidance created by addiction) .
What we were talking about here is the mechanism of addiction not 'time out'.
To me the addiction arises from that part of the mind (brain), which I assume the ego is located (associated with) in. If one, can make such an arrogant statement?
To me this ego, I am talking about, is designed to avoid dealing with obstacles at all cost, i.e. keep me in the one space, which I am already comfortable with,
If I could paint a picture of the ego? (analogy ; being like a child, trying to keep itself in a safe space, hence avoiding unknown territory, would allow me to describe how addictions are useful in not disturbing my current perception of acceptable reality. This is where the mental loop I mentioned earlier comes into play.
by distracting oneself (using addictions i.e. creating a loop) helps the ego avoid issues which arise in the day to day processes of living, each of these processes have an underlying fear which must be overcome first in order to do the process, like; may be making money to pay rent (fear of not getting the job when approaching the employer?) , approaching a potential new partner in a vulnerable way (fear of a knock back), or having to deal with sticky situations like, explaining a lie previously used to cover up a vulnerable moment , these are examples of obstacles which lead to the creation of addictions, associated with the existence of this thing I call 'ego'.
The example of "trojan_libido" ; "I definately craved warcraft." possibly shows an example of a loop designed to avoid a confronting situation in the day to day dealings?? Many people did not get a pat on the back as children when they exploring their scary world and hence will escape to the world of fantasy which replaces the need to face the outside world??? etc., If I keep trying to express my model the process will loose every one including me so back to ........
............... your question 'Vee" [..Have you considered that perhaos it is necessary to go one step lower in the evaluation of it?]
Vee, I feel that you and I are talking about the same process, to me the mind stores all data from time of conception to present moment, though due to the construction of this thing I call "ego" most of this information is hidden from our conscious minds and many of the beliefs which are responsible for these addictions are in this data.
As u say " - i am too fat - ? (anorexia) - I am not beautiful enough (addiction to plastic surgery) ... " to me are examples of where the "ego" has attached a large amount of emotion i.e. pain or lack of self worth to a statement like "I am too fat", this is an unconscious statement, which manifests as a feeling of self rejection when food is put into the equation (as food is associated as the reason for being too fat?).
Will try to return to this forum to see what a meal you have all made of this post??????......................
though do not hold your breath as you may die befor I get back.......?????