Hide what I am
Because I don't think I ever knew
I am nothing
And never was to you

Yes I'll rant
The cause was childish
I let your games grab hold and pull me around
Pull me into the ground
Back where you left me
For everyone else that could of been better

Sorry that I have my moments
I'm sorry everyone has them too
I'm sorry I even trusted you

As immature as I am
I know one thing to be true
I learned to love again
And I wont be happy
Until everyone can be too

I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm sorry you hurt me back
I'm sorry but this new sickness
Is going to give my last heart an attack

I wish I could let it all out
Instead of letting it burn inside
Just so I could avoid thinking of you

I managed to hold on
But the people I thought cared
Won’t help me let go

I'm trapped in a wonderland
Great moments
Perfect love
Fuzzy and happy land where everything
Includes laughter

And then I fall
Further down the rabbit hole
Where I'm being chased down by the past
Wishing it could chop off my head

There is no wakening up
Until I run a little faster
For a moment where I can have fun again
But you'll always catch up to me

I wouldn't mind it so much
If everything involving you
Wasn't so hurtful
I hear hate
I watch the people who cared for me
Making me listen to it again

I wish for the moments where I'm back
In my perfect wonderland