I feel torn
I don't know what to feel or do
SO I just lay here
Sit
Thinking of all the ways to make
things right one more time
And although things seem to be going ok
Nothing truly is
I made a mistake
But it helped my neverending pain

I kissed the man I cannot stand
And found out I do love another
Maybe not love
But I wanna be with that person

But being with one person will end up
With the hurt of alot of others
And how do I know his true feelings?
How do I know

So I'm a teenage dirtbag
Nothing works out for me
And in the end
The world would of been better off
Without a fool like me

Your confusion is like wood to my flame
It makes things easier for people to understand

...Think your lost now?
You should check out my state of mind

I constantly hurt the people I care for
For some reson I can't go a day
Without somones anger tearing me down
Killing my happiness

I don't wish to eat anymore
For the feeling that trembles throughout
My fat
My hurt
The thing I wish I could call mine
And feel ok inside
I will never look like the girl

Like the girls that I see the men I like
Truely want
I wanna be the girls on tv
The girls they look at
And when their done
They look at me
And for a moment wish they had better
I want them to look at me
And think about how much better I am

Wishes don't come true
Because although
I don't have to be
I'm alone

...I guess my true lonelyness
Is all in my head