Today
A great day
Nothing went wrong
But now that the night
Is over....
Everything feels so...
Wrong
I have butterflys in my tummy
As if waiting for a love to call
But only my true love would...
Call me at this very moment
...O look
Nothing once again
Here I sit alone
Cutting deeper
Wishing harder
Seeing nothing
But my red hair
That has sweetly fallen
Into these kilidoscope eyes

I see no evil now
I see no hurt
My tummy still screams
Wishing
Cutting
From the butterflys inside
I let them out with a stronger cut
One that reaches so deep inside

No one will see it
For my mind will hide it
Like it has so many times before

The blood droping down
From the wrist I called my own
Seeing nothing around me
Nothing as in myself

Watching my every move
I dream of being invisable
Doing whatever I please
With no one to hurt in the end
Or to just be dead
And to never have to deal with another day

So when I get home
From one of the best days I've had
I relize that I'm misarable
With myself

So the hate that boils in me
Is starting to explode from inside out
And it hurts me everyday

It knows when I'm about to fall
Into my never ending sleep
So that I can't
And I wake up

My body wants to protect me
But it has faild now
For I have done the things it warned me of
I ran with the devil in my mind
Leaving my life behind

The person you see and talk to
Is no longer me
Its just a happy girl
Inside me as you can see

The only time you'll know me
Is when I sit down here

But the thing talking to you now is dead
And wishing for some last words out

Maybe not dead but rotting
Starving
Hateing
Wanting
Trapt at the bottom of my heart
With nothing but darkness swollowing
the thing it onces called existance

I've learned to hate myself everyday
Taught to cry or come
Nothing makes sence as you can see
Was it ment to
Is somthing you'll ask me
I love so many
And hate myself
Making them belive I hate them

A confusing process my life
No one diserves such treetment

But as I sit and cry myself to sleep
Taking the drugs that help
Thinking the thoughts that kill
O wait
Rott
No smile will apear and stay as you see
Not on me or anyone
So stop asking me whats wrong

Give up on me

The man who I belived in
Who I gave all my trust to
Was not the love for me
He has been ruled out as the one
He has hurt me


As I stood before My friends
Long sleeved to hide my wrists
I told them of his lies
And Loved him at the same time
Now here I sit rambling on about nothing
And no ones here to listen
So as I sit ans waste away
Know that I loved him
I loved him then
And hate me now

I truly wanted to marry that thing
I wanted to have his children
I wanted a break
To fix the things I loved once about him

He hurt me deeper then beliveable
And in return I hurt him twice
But his childness kept going
So I ended it with a truse
And now I see his number
Wishing to call and hear someone love me again
It hurts to know I wont
It hurts to know he doesn't
It hurts to relize I'm pathetic
I know I'm stupid

And young
And a flake

So to end the misery of the others I wish to die
And one day
My trys will work
And people will only remeber me
for the girl who hurt David

Because other then that
I am nothing

He walked up to my car
to pick up the ticket
if you read my other you would know which ones
he came with his girl
to my car
he knows what hes doing
he IS trying to hurt me
the lies of a X lover have swollowed me hole
And so I sit at the bottom of my heart waiting
For my knight in shinning armor to save my life

...one more time

A knight in shinning armor is the last thing you need--armor is there to shield a coward. What you need is a nice guy who will lay his armor down. Someone who will show you their weakness/vulnerability and accept their short comings. If you are looking for a knight in shinning armor you will just find another deuch

Aside from that, I loved it~

Lol thank you
I do need to find a nice guy for some reson I keep ending up with all these jerks