I cannot take this pain
I'm loosing my mind
Repeating again
It's so relieving
To find out what's behind
The lies and the deceiving

Dig up the dirt
But don't bury yourself in the ground
I hurt
Now I'm never safe and sound

Well I guess this all just my eyes
'Cause everything is a grey blur
I think my looks are despised
And the alcohol makes me slur

I don't know what to do anymore
Drinking just makes it all numb
My mother sang a thousand lies, and slammed a door
In my face until I went away thinking I'd done wrong
But I wanted to know more
Screamed in my ear,
Suicide overtakes people like her an I
The devil was all she and I could hear
We share the same pain, without a lie
History repeating itself,
it's so exhausting
I can't be the only one who feels this
She felt it too, but it wasn't me who was causing
Her mind to collapse, just like mine has, and now there is just a death kiss
I receive the devil's cuts,
He tells me I'm wrong
The sky just goes dark, and my inside crush
Well this is real life, not something in a song
I hurt again
People around me hurt,
I'm like a black cloud causing rain,
But I wouldn't be the first.
Just because I hurt
Doesn't mean other people don't.
I'm so wrapped up in cuts and bruises
That doesn't mean I won't
Continue hurting myself, of course I knew this

My mind got sold some time ago
To the man who calls himself God
I trusted everyone around me without letting it go,
I just smile and nod
To all the mean things they spit in my face
Well don't think I don't know it
This is something that's not fake
And now my face has been hit.

Well I hurt today,
And I know they will too.
When I lay my vengeance upon them.
And hear the screams too soon.