No One No More

I feel myself fading slipping away
Perhaps it will not be necessary
After all as I thought after the fall
For me to commit suicide someday
As gradually I slip out of me

The restraint which has kept me here this long
The question of my culpability
My blood on my own hands becomes less strong
As I do and begins to fade with me

On dreadful websites whenever I say
Anything about not wanting to live
The judgmental mockingbirds come chirping
"Just die! Go ahead! You ought to be dead!"

Blindly anonymously usurping
Nature and nurture nor will they forgive
Me their misperception that I am gay
Would that I were had never known her nor
The others I once thought I would die for

Forget me I just need to get away
And die only for me: no one no more

+Steven Curtis Lance



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