Let’s start off by saying… I speak my mind. If I feel it… and I know that I am willing to put myself on the line for it to be heard… it will be said. It could be something as small and plain as an opinion to everyday life, or as fragile and emotionally built as love …the love that can kill you deep inside when you least expect it…maybe with the weakest form of hurt it can destroy a love that no one could experience but the two involved. And later on, just the thought of your loss, brings you to comprehend your silence of the broken heart. Love isn’t like most give off. Its not to love loose and forget, its love, cherish, remember. See like someone close to me once said, it’s love that would break a person without intention or purpose. I believe that stress may cause so much impact on a person that it can change them for better or worse. In many cases of situations that people are in… that they wish they never experienced… never did…. its better to have them, to learn and prosper from them… then to never have gained the knowledge to grow from them at all. You see that relates to love in a way. You do things that you never could imagine, experience things that in your wildest dreams you couldn’t have even wished. Its funny how love can be anything, and can be in any form. Something so intentional yet unexpected. How something so simple can touch a life… or be something that you can never forget. It could be as straightforward as a glance that person gave you… to something as warm and unforgettable as a night spent cuddling and sharing feelings with that person that you could have never of expected. But sometimes in life, things are complicated. Complicated as in, either a one time thing or something that for different reasons may not work out the way you had hoped. Circumstances that I have been through personally gave me the reality and chance to deem that, things that happen become memory, memory becomes a blur to some… something not to remember or just to say that happened, but to others like myself… its something that leads me to wonder what could and will most likely never happen. It leads me also to wonder what have we gained from that haunting memory that being the person I am I will never let go of… and that I will shed tears over and hope for more experiences. But love… oh love is so complicated that way. You feel one thing but life being as unfair as it us not letting people follow their hearts. But through it all, that person will always stay in your heart. Once you fall In Love someone, how do you fall Out of love with them?

Let’s start off by saying… I speak my mind. If I feel it… and I know that I am willing to put myself on the line for it to be heard… it will be said. It could be something as small and plain as an opinion to everyday life, or as fragile and emotionally built as love …the love that can kill you deep inside when you least expect it…maybe with the weakest form of hurt it can destroy a love that no one could experience but the two involved.

And later on, just the thought of your loss, brings you to comprehend your silence of the broken heart. Love isn’t like most give off. Its not to love loose and forget, its love, cherish, remember. See like someone close to me once said, it’s love that would break a person without intention or purpose.

I believe that stress may cause so much impact on a person that it can change them for better or worse. In many cases of situations that people are in… that they wish they never experienced… never did…. its better to have them, to learn and prosper from them… then to never have gained the knowledge to grow from them at all. You see that relates to love in a way.

You do things that you never could imagine, experience things that in your wildest dreams you couldn’t have even wished. Its funny how love can be anything, and can be in any form. Something so intentional yet unexpected. How something so simple can touch a life… or be something that you can never forget. It could be as straightforward as a glance that person gave you… to something as warm and unforgettable as a night spent cuddling and sharing feelings with that person that you could have never of expected.

But sometimes in life, things are complicated. Complicated as in, either a one time thing or something that for different reasons may not work out the way you had hoped. Circumstances that I have been through personally gave me the reality and chance to deem that, things that happen become memory, memory becomes a blur to some… something not to remember or just to say that happened, but to others like myself… its something that leads me to wonder what could and will most likely never happen.

It leads me also to wonder what have we gained from that haunting memory that being the person I am I will never let go of… and that I will shed tears over and hope for more experiences.

But love… oh love is so complicated that way. You feel one thing but life being as unfair as it us not letting people follow their hearts. But through it all, that person will always stay in your heart. Once you fall In Love someone, how do you fall Out of love with them?

I prefer the original version. Sort of rushing out in one go, maintaining the emotions, containing the feelings, encapsulating the intensity - poetic spontaneity. Well done Nika!

Yes, I agree with my friend Hey Hey, Nika; I like it as you wrote it and consider it its own kind of poetry. And the fact that this is where you choose to share these words from your heart honors us, and my heart is touched by and hears your words.

Did some Unknown paragrapher come along and break up your original post into paragraphs, some Unknown and compulsive editor? That's weird. Whatever... Crazy sh*t hereabouts, always, and again of late.

But anyway, Nika, I love you, and I love what you write. Thanks for sharing it with us here.

I'll do my best to handle the crazy sh*t. The provocateurs no longer succeed in provoking me, and also things have settled down now since the "Silke" thing is over; some of it might well have had to do with her. We have some ostensibly British fella (of whom one would expect better) teasing Hey Hey now and again, but I think we're OK.

I say to all of 'em: "f**k you." I used to have to pussyfoot around while I was trapped in "Silke's" web, pussywhipped as I was by someone who might well not have even existed, but I'm me again and free again, and ol' +Stevie Lance doesn't give a f**k, nor am I provoked.

Good to see you around. Post whatever you want, Nika. I think you're the greatest.

Love,

+Stevie

Confidential to hamster-dude:

Leave Hey Hey alone, and don't even start with me, because you bore me; I've had a lifetime-quota of Internet-weirdness from "Silke," and I don't play anymore. If you don't like the site, stay away. *yawn*

Everybody be cool.

Thanks for ruining Nika!'s thread

Nika's my friend. You are not. Everything's cool... 'cept, maybe you?

Chill.