Considering Conceding: Weighing Withdrawal

(Making the same mistake Kierkegaard made?)

As I have discussed and written before
The human being finds himself alone
But if he should hear a knock at his door
Ought he then open it to the unknown?
Is it imaginary? Is it real?
Better if imaginary is how I feel

To the question of clerical celibacy
I answer with Isaiah "here am I: send me"

A difficult relationship is worse
Than being alone in the universe
No regrets no fears nor would one cause tears

I prefer to avoid the heartbreak and trouble
Which comes when we cause our aloneness to double
And I have been celibate for these past twelve years

Could there be hope? Of course! There always is
Yet I fear that hope is not mine ...but his:

Rival! I salute you in your superiority!
Leave me alone then with my God! Lord here am I: send me

Only one haunts me
No one else wants me

+Steven Curtis Lance



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