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| Silke Lance |
 Aug 23, 2004, 10:10 PM
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Ok...so I TRIED to eat something yesterday(Just ONE grape.How is it possible to panic about the fact that I ate ONE grape.)...
BIG MISTAKE..... I have spent the night hanging over a bowl... God....I HATE myself. Failure failure failure. I am sick of this but everyday I start the whole same pattern again. I waste time. I waste energy. I cannot stop. My options are to be healthy;start eating and KEEP it down. This is not right. I WANT to be healthy. I am scared. I do not trust myself. What could it be like to go a whole day without worrying about food or hating myself? What could it be like to succeed? What will it feel like to really love my body? Is that possible? I am scared of the work that is involved and the mistakes I will have to endure. But this is my only option. To be healthy. I can not think of another way to lead a real genuine life and I cannot wait. I need patience. |
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| Dara |
Aug 24, 2004, 05:24 AM
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I know what you mean SIlke. I am not sure how to eat, I am not sure how to let go of this ED that is taking my energy, my hope...WHY is it SOOOOOOO HARD???
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