Oh Silke My Silke I Beg You Forgive, The effects of my depression on those I love Options

[+Steven Curtis Lance]

Transcendental Sonnet #738:
Oh Silke My Silke I Beg You Forgive

I view the world through black glasses of gloom
My thoughts tend to be morbid and of death
The sun is shining brightly but the doom
Inside of me so often stifles faith

Midsummer Vigil and Father's Day here
My three kids struggling against all my fear
Doing their utmost to give me a smile
Taking me out and about on the town
Pulling me out of my hell for a while
Pulling so far as I was so far down

Oh Silke my Silke I beg you forgive
How I have exhausted you with my despair!
I love you I need you and I want to live
My light draw me toward you! I want to be there!

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+Steven Curtis Lance

Copyright MMIV The Steven Curtis Lance Irrevocable Trust

I worried Silke terribly with a suicidal episode. I beg her to forgive me now, and to stay with me always. I need her now more than ever. She is the most wonderful wife in the world. I don't ever want to bring her down. I only want to make her feel better, never worse.

I love you Mausi! Forgive me!

[+Steven Curtis Lance]

Thank you so much, Nikki; that really means a lot to me. I feel so guilty about worrying and upsetting her when she is so sick...

Silkchen Mausi really is the best wife ever. I'm so fortunate, so blessed to have her.

Here's a Latin phrase she taught me:

POST NUBILA PHOEBUS
(After the clouds comes the sun)

[Silke Lance]

Forgiven and forgotten.

*'Tis the most tender part of love, each other to forgive.*
(John Sheffield)

In Liebe,
Silke

[+Steven Curtis Lance]

Thank you, with all my heart, meine schoenste Mutti.

Ich liebe dich so sehr.

*Sehnsucht nach dir*

AMOR VINCIT OMNIA

[Windowmaker]

I'm glad your still with us +Goofball. There are pluses and minuses to your suicide. Well one plus anyway. Here are my examples...scientifically proven...
My book would be worth more money (tiny plus)
I wouldn't be able to buy anymore of your books (huge minus) Unless your Tupac Shakur. Just a joke my friend. Quitters never win. Dust yourself off, get back on that pony and ride. When the hell ya' gettin' married anyway. Get your a*s over there already!

Yes, I appreciated the poem and so immeasurably glad you came to your senses. Even I'd miss ya just a little though -hehe! Prayer changes things, my friend.

In solidarity with you,

Kevin

[misty_tears]

WoW steven, its all about forgiveness and forgotten... love your work poetic friend...

[-J-]

I missed this episode Steve old chap,

Glad I did too by the looks of it, Take Kev's advice, it is sound.

Namaste

Keep your faith in your w/l - ife alive and well !

Friends as always brother

-J-

[Angiebaby]

Alter ipse amicus (A friend is another self)

and you have so many here, if you were to take your own life, you'd take away a piece of each of us. It doesn't matter that most of us here have never met, we all have a connection, we all write our heart and souls on these here pages. We have all whether knowingly or not touched the souls of each other. Have strength in the knowledge that so many do care for you.

hugs,


Ange x

[Angiebaby]

I just want to write something else, some lyrics from a song. Whenever i'm having a bad day i think of this:

"if you have no hope, there is none"


Ange x

[+Steven Curtis Lance]

I am profoundly moved to read such kind words from so many. I thank you all, with all my heart.

I mean to live and try to write well, and see if I might one day become a really good poet. Most of all, I mean to enjoy my Silke's company, and to share sweet kisses under the moon.

All my love to all.

POST NUBILA PHOEBUS

DUM SPIRO SPERO