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[CACACACOOKIE]

She went to her friends house and had the time of her life everything was great and she was finally able to smile and not be holding back tears at the same time her and her friend went inside and the moment they sat down for dinner the girls mother called crying so the girl excused herself from the table and ran to a phone far away to not embarrass her self anymore then she was.
Her mother told her that they were being kicked out of the house that she didn’t know what was going on that she only went out to have 2 beers it wasn’t that big of a deal. It was all mixed up in the girls mind nothing would make its self state so she did the only thing she could do was hang up the phone and cry she didn’t cry long because she wanted to apologize for running out on dinner so she held back her tears once again and when in and told her friends hole family what was wrong because they could all see in her face that she was crying inside. She wouldn’t eat the rest of her food and when her mother had got there SHE told everyone every little detail that the girl had left out because of the embarrassment that her mother was a stupid whore who cannot live without a man. So they left to get clothes for the next day and they had planed to go to a hotel or something they didn’t care what. So the moment they got there the mother went into the kitchen were her x-boyfriend was to talk to him she told the girl to go pack so the girl went to her room and boomed music to hide from the screaming.
Her mother walked into her room 15 mins. Later to tell her that they were staying there the girl said no but her mother wouldn’t listen so it ended it whatever and a shoe being thrown at the door. The girl sat on her bed crying but she new that her brother was next door and would laugh at her for crying so she ran out side and hid behind the car weeping in the rain hoping it would flood so she would drown to death. The boyfriend went out side and tried to talk to her and tell her that her mother was cheating on him but she wouldn’t listen she didn’t want to listen. So she just said, "I need to go pack" and got up and left. She went back to her room and heard a crash of something in the kitchen she didn’t care she just wanted to curl up in a ball and die but the next thing she new her mother screamed at her "kaysie lets go" and so she grabbed what she could of hers and walked out the door. Her mother’s clothes and everything else were thrown at them and a jewelry box was smashed but they picked everything up and went and stayed in a hotel. The next day she arrived early for school and went home with her friend. So she sat n her friends bed crying and was worried sick about her mother she kept calling her self a "worried mother" because she had been raseing her mother since she was 3. This wasn’t the first time her mother and her had gone threw a boyfriend break up and knowing her mother it wasn’t going to be the last. So her mother stead out late again and then never showed up that night so the girl had no clothes tooth brush or anything her mother had left her with nothing but her friends mother bought her girlie clothes and let her borrow everything else and then made her lay in her friends bed to waite for her mother alone...waiting...worrying...wishing death. She woke the next day to find out that her mother had been at a bar and the boyfriend threw a drank at her and then her mother had gone home and slept with some dude named matt and was now dating him (o what a wonderful life we all lead) so after giving her mother a lecture and that long hard day of being made fun of and making up lies because of the embarrassment that her mother was a tramp she ended up going to her grannies no she couldn’t g to a friends house she had to stay with her mother at grannies
All her mother ever thought of the girl was baggage you have to take it everywhere or you can’t make it the next day. So she spent one night at her grannies and the rest of the weekend at her mothers NEW boyfriends house. And now she is sitting here typing everything because she’s a pathetic little nothing whose life was runnined by a tramp

[roachman1215]

She is not a pathetic little nothing. The girl has a strength in her that she sometimes doesn't see. She has friends who care.....and she will get through this pain she is now enduring.

[MagicalCookie]

james this is Invisable

i am pathetic and i wish i was dead so i didnt have to feel the pain im going though if i died i would only feel a little pain for a little wile it feels like the pain in my life is going to last forever

[CACACACOOKIE]

death seems so much easier then life

[ExodusNights]

How old are you, honey? 14? Trust me, when you've experienced just a little bit more of what there is to life, it won't seem so hopeless.

Death may be easier than life, but it's the cowards way out.

[Unknown]

[ExodusNights]

Granted. I would not consider ending ones life a "rational" decision, however.

How about this? Death is the way out for the cowards, the fools, the weak and the ignorant.

*grins* Better? Wording aside, I still don't feel that the little one can claim to know so much of life at fourteen that death is the only answer.

[Unknown]

[CACACACOOKIE]

people tell me it "it only gets better i swear it wont get worse" they lied nothing has gotten better my mom dumped the new boyfriend and now is engaged to the one that kicked us out she dosnt care she said that he was sorry that he will never do it again BULL sh*t ive done this one to many times to think that he can change i dont know any other way out except death i cant go back i wont@!

[-J-]

Dear Alone,

I wont tell you a lie and say it wont get any worse, maybe it will and then again maybe it wont. You didnt choose your mother, but you are stuck with her for the moment.

All I can say is dont give up on life so easily, and dont pay any attention to -unknowns- who think they need to put their oar in to validate the question of suicide being an easy option. It has no bearing upon your plight.
Life can be the most wonderous thing and it can be the most fucked up piece of sh*t you could ever imagine. I have been witness to both, I have wanted to end it all so often I got sick of the thought in the end. So I plod on as best I can. You do have something that I can never have, you have time on your side.
Bite down on your bitterness, life is a long haul, you might think its all worth nothing right now, but who knows, it just might get a whole lot better .... it just might !

Take heart young one

J

[CACACACOOKIE]

im not that young im 14 old eough@@@!!!! thank you though i understand what you saying i think death seems so easy but i cant take the esay way out i wont

no worrys