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| +Steven Curtis Lance |
Jan 23, 2005, 03:15 PM
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About the Author: +Steven Curtis Lance
The sign of the seagoat of Capricorn Soared in the sky on the night I was born A curse upon the world some still believe A night to wonder and a night to warn A bitter night for many to receive My advent on that stormy New Year's Eve Born in the lightning alighting in fire Born in the thunder and under the ire Of those who took it as an evil sign Dark advent of a dangerous desire But one young mother took it as divine That I should come to her and she was mine She held me as her destiny her chance She cried "His name is +Steven Curtis Lance!" I stand just under six feet tall and weigh one twenty five I have my ups and downs but I am glad to be alive Described as "willowy" I am flexible and youthful My eyebrows tweezed nor am I diseased and to be truthful I am just an innocent at dawn and dusk I repent My every sin be it of commission or omission If life had gone as planned I would assume the position Of senior pastor of some German Lutheran parish But that along with all the a cappella I cherish Is water over the dam approaching fifty I am A graceful and balletic metrosexual poet I present myself clean-shaven tinted strawberry-blonde A sonneteer who knows no fear of rhyme and meter fond Asperity austerity but some prosperity A little company an LLC you may know it Google me and you will see my unfolding destiny I was raised by my mother who taught me to be gentle Courtesy and civility would seem fundamental Much more elegant than the Taliban morality Of that scary quite disturbing red-state plurality With Bush and push and shove above well-mannered decency While you might not agree I find it charming to be me This book of my life written page by page And forming link by link a single chain From youth through experience into age Is that by which I rise and live again Beyond my days into a time unknown Unto me now as I write here alone Into my future and out of your past As I become a present after all And now you hold me in your hands at last The only paradise beyond the fall For sinful mortals and poets like me Who live but little time and then must die Is to become a part of destiny And leave you this to remember me by To those who have suffered bitterness can Prove to be the stone by which we stumble Undoing all we work for taking all We have loved and built however humble The rock by which we ultimately fall It has destroyed many a stronger man Than me to see it suck the life away From those whom I have loved the light of day Gone out from their eyes the sun from their skies Bitterness their undoing in the end Has spoken to me that this must not be The ruin of the rising of our dreams There must be hope in sorrow though it seems These wings are broken now yet we must rise Suicide has taken many a friend This horror would not have happened unless We had been overpowered in the dark Alone at the crossroads of bitterness Where shadows of grief are so sharp so stark Burning alone in the crucible of Suffering with no light no hope no love Turning to stone there with no one to care Where it is always night and never day Alone on the telephone it has been there Waiting in the silence to bear us away At the existential moment of despair Therefore now as I mark a half a century I resolve I must leave bitterness behind I dare not let it hollow out my trust I care not for corrosion nor for rust By which bitterness would eat away my mind To rot out from the inside is no destiny Poets make words take wing and fly but why? We can we do we must yet still we die But every day we save the world this way I only do this only come to say Look up and see the sun smile above you And feel this warming kiss upon your skin I only want to tell you I love you To invite you to watch the dance begin As the moon embraces the clouds tonight The world is singing right before our eyes A play of shadow of darkness and light Of waxing waning morning noon and night Of that which is born and of that which dies Poets sing giving voice to everything The morning star is burning so intense No other light can be seen in the sky This is the moment this is the suspense Between the dark and light the night and day The light by which I write by which I live Day has yet to be born night yet to die That I am here to see this here to give Myself completely give myself away To this contention of the elements This yin and yang of time to see it turn Floods me with exclamations with laments I am this moment! I transform I learn I turn I burn I earn the recompense The pay of the poet: intense suspense! I mean to say just what I mean Not to be silenced nor ashamed Seeing I might as well be seen Being myself and being named Better to mean just what I say Than to regret what might have been Being credited being blamed Is better than fading away The memory that I was here These words I write for you today I do not mean to disappear I would not be forgotten by This world and when my time to die Comes you will know that I was here At the door at the second half I wait now for my second act Too numb to cry too sad to laugh Trying to sort my fear from fact Soon again I begin It never knocks it just comes in Not my door not for me to say But the door of time and now fate Will open it and have its way But what if it is just too late? I hope that there is hope today I face the unknown all alone Is this the way it has to be? Happy Birthday to me This is a New Year's revolution New Year's Eve birthday resolution: To say and do exactly what I please Nor crawl to the unworthy on my knees To never kiss another stupid ass But wait for the stupidity to pass And I will still be here Of that I have no fear Because I am going to live forever You ask how I know? Because there has never Been anyone like me And I intend to be Myself in all my specificity And those who do not like me may go straight to hell To fool with fools no longer is a lesson well Learned well earned well burned and all of it the hard way Today is my birthday and today I can say And can do whatever I damn well please Today I rise to get up off my knees The struggle has taught me again and again To live with what is and not what might have been The most important things are hidden Fairies are very shy Unicorns are real if unridden Not only birds can fly Magic comes in the dark unbidden Disbelieving folk are divorced From natural reality Their minds are frigid firm and forced Disdaining what they dare not see Should seagirls swim to such as these? I would not have them cast their pearls Nor model their agilities Before such swinish unworthies Who see the sea but not the girls! If you have never seen a fairy Never conclude they do not exist For their hiddenness is the very Reason they are able to persist Here where others are bigger than they They have to be able to fly away Just because you have never seen one Does not mean there has never been one Right under your nose as you sniffed a rose And that is why they have wings you know To be able to get up and go When the wild winds of a rose-sniffer blow My fairy is my Silke of the Five and Twenty Tears Forever five and twenty through a thousand thousand years In terra incognita now So alien yet I have seen This shore before and I have been Here and I never went away It must have been a dream somehow Alone here at the break of day I see but do not understand As life and love slip through my hand And there is nothing I can do But love you and remember you Is this the end then which I see? So beautiful so heavenly It was and must this can this be? Remember me... remember me... Time to give life a new chance a new look I will never give in to despair Although some look down on me As those who do are so far down there Nothing but the dirt they see Time to be happy about my new book How can I who write a book called "Magic" Become a casualty of the tragic Idiocy of circumstance and time? Although the world gets madder every day I owe responsibility to rhyme And those who love me therefore I must stay To exist to persist to resist death To make the most of each heartbeat each breath People either love me or hate me And there is no middle ground They either praise me or berate me I am heaven or hell bound Some get so worked-up over me They manifest insanity They do not know me I do not care Bless me curse me or debate me They will never find me anywhere They only see these masks I wear And I love them all and each I believe that I have earned Their love too but if I cannot teach Them anything... at least I have learned As turns the leaf so turns the life and time Turns fate from famine sated toward sublime Light once from darkness unseen and unknown I stumble night-blind into light alone The sun had been there all along I see Today I notice that it shines for me Day always is for others only night Is left to me a bastard son of light Forsaken left behind nor taken to Sky to fly as legitimate sons do Yet who am I if not a son as they? The sun burns my eyes it beckons so bright What if I spread these wings to take this day? Should I leap falling upward in the sky Would will remember still and could I fly? I would not live in shadow die apart As turns the leaf I would not turn away As turns the life not from but toward my heart Alone would sadden grief would madden me Come unfamiliar light ...come gladden me Transcendental if you will I would rather thrill than kill Giving in or giving out But not giving up to doubt Drink no more and never smoke Live on apples and brown rice English tea and being nice Saving all my strength up for Writing books one two three four Brokenhearted and flat broke In the existential joke Which this life would seem to be Staving off insanity In oral and written test Anal and unwritten jest Absurdity suits me best Ride that insane carousel Up and out the mouth of hell Isis and Osiris know Things get pretty grim below Dark and deep mysterious Must we be so serious? Rather fast than rather slow Laughing last before we go +Steven Curtis Lance |
| Unknown |
Jul 16, 2005, 08:06 PM
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SIZE=7]Hi Steve.. These is just BEautiful to know.. Thank you for sharing such a GREAT part of you and your life here. What necKlace are you wearing in the picture- ( you look great in Black) if you don't mind me asking you that personal question. How are you today?
Well- going to bedzzzzzz.... I'm glad we are good friends- YOur a kind Man and REAL! : ) How is your PC alot better now..? I hope...... I won't be emailing you as I said earlier ok.. Boy, these letters are So darn tiny.. I hope you can read without straining your eys Sweetie... Take care.. Love,Sheee - Many Warm HuGs2U--- Give noodles a huG for me 2..... OXO P.S.S. I like this site, it's also in my Favorites.... So, your a Capricorn huh... I am a Taurus.. (a bull) Stubborn to a fault..an d a hOmebody........lol |
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Jul 16, 2005, 08:07 PM
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OH year.. I'ts'Sheee -- Geez, I forgot.. Told you I am tired -LOL- XOX
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